I kept telling myself I don’t love my partner to test myself… do I not love him anymore?… I knew I did last night and I was able to cuddle with him. I actually feel like I don’t love him anymore…. I can’t cry… I’ve cried so much I can’t do it anymore… the idea of breaking up feels like it doesn’t sadden me but at the same time I freak out from it…. But I don’t want to leave. Did I really go numb? I’ve been crying all month or in fact this whole year…. It’s like I don’t care anymore…. Like I don’t like who he is anymore.. 😞 how how did I know last night and now it like I don’t…. 😞