okay so i’m a sophomore in college and last year i meant this girl and we’re still in the same friend group. At the time before i was having soocd i dont think i had feelings for her. I do think i could kind of tell that she was bi, but i never thought i liked her or anything. if anything i just realized that she acted kinda less girly and different then the rest of us (not in a bad way AT ALL i am not homophobic i just think i noticed that) But now that i’m having the ocd i’m scared that i kind of like her. like idk as soon as i found out she was bi it’s really scared me. i haven’t seen her in a while but i think i’m gonna see her tomorrow and i can’t stop worrying about it. I don’t care if i really do like her but i don’t want that to mean that i don’t like boys. it’s like my brain says that if i really do have a crush on her than i probably only like girls (especially more masculine ones like her) and that i don’t like guys. like there’s just this feeling in my brain that says if i really have liked girls this whole time i’ve probably been living my whole life a lie and i don’t like boys. this is really scary because i love my boyfriend so much and i don’t think me realizing i might like my friend should be an all or nothing thing. like i could just be bisexual. I know i like boys like earlier i noticed a lot of boys that i thought were cute. idk if it’s just the fact that liking girls is different than what i usually experience so it makes me feel like i HAVE to figure it out and i must just be lesbian. really struggling rn i’m literally fine being bi but i don’t even want to see her anymore tomorrow

I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now

Im a 21 year old female in a straight relationship with the best guy a girl could ever ask for. About 2 months ago, I went to get coffee with a friend and as I dropped her off, I got a “weird” vibe from her and the look she gave me which lead to the thought of “should I kiss her”….Ive never had a thought like that before and I never have ever wanted to kiss another girl. I have also never had a desire to be with another girl (sexually or romantically). Now though, I have had one other experience of being with a different friend going to get lunch and it felt weird. Ever since then I have been on google non stop with hundreds of different searches, questioning if im lying to myself of my boyfriend, wondering about my past relationships even though Ive only dated boys, been attracted to boys, crushed on boys, etc… boy crazy! Reading on other forums has been a big thing too or doing quizzes. I believe its SO-OCD but im so scared that what if its not. I am in therapy and actually had two weeks of not even thinking about it or googling it until yesterday. I dont know what to do.

I’m 25 and never ever thought this before my soocd relapse. I have a bf of 5 years. Never been a high libido kinda girl. Don’t get me wrong I do get turned on by my bf but not like every day you know? - That had always been in the back of my head, is this normal and ok? But my ocd has latched onto the most scariest what if EVER. My brain is now saying How do you know you won’t prefer to sleep and kiss girls if you haven’t tried it: and it’s that unknown that is scaring the shit out of me. I DONT AND NEVER HAVE wanted to sleep / kiss a girl. But now my intrusive thoughts is all I think about!!! I don’t want I don’t want I don’t want??? So why does my brain think BUT WHAT IF??? I know ocd thrives off uncertainty which is why I think this is happening? But I don’t wanna find out or work it out because all I want is to be with my bf and marry him!! Is this just the epitome of OCD?