Trigger warning-Arousal scenarios So I get aroused fairly easily. My wife likes to make fun of me because I always get aroused when washing the dishes because the counter sits right at the perfect height and it pushes agains my groinal area. Sometimes just walking a certain way would cause it. Basically any sort of pressure. The problem with this is when my (1 year old) son sits in my lap, or that area. Even just now I’m working from home, and my son loves to come in to my office and try to play with the computer keyboard because its a gaming keyboard and lights up. I let him sit on my lap, but I start to feel arousal. This was never a. Issue before pocd started about 6 months ago, it would happen all the time when feeding him or whatever. I NEVER thought twice about it because it was such a common occurrence. But now I just can’t shake the idea that maybe I’m actually sexually aroused by him sitting there 😞 I try to just brush it if and focus on the ERP, but it’s SO hard with this one. This is my son for f*ck sake! I freaking hate this disorder. It’s literally steal my joy of being a father. Anyway I just wanted to vent. Not seeking reassurance as I know there is nothing anyone could say anyway that would make me feel any different. But maybe there’s someone out there experiencing the same thing and will know they’re not alone.

Just gonna vent, this never happened to me before during my 20 years alive. Whether it is POCD or not, I have truly lost my sense of self and my innocence. Why of all things did this have to happen. Ive been experiencing more strong groinal responses and mixed feelings of arousal regarding specific thoughts. Its so odd, cause last month none of this happened, it was mainly just anxiety and mental breakdowns. Never did I think I would experience physical sensations as well. Acting on compulsions as well left me feeling absolute confusion, Ive stopped doing that but now I get the urge here and there, and Ive learned to sit with the discomfort. All this leaves me with more questions on whether I will truly get through this or not, or if people will understand my situation. On certain days I feel fine, on other days its sheer terror. I blame myself mainly for this all, It is scary as these images, causing both arousal and terror, only result in me feeling like a shell of my former self

I’ve been dealing with POCD for months and fake arousal is the worse, especially now it’s changed to when I’m scrolling on an app, etc and happen to come across a child, my Pocd makes me have fake arousal as usually I do a compultion such as trying to stop the arousal from happening such as tending my body, etc. however, recently I’ve enjoyed the fake arousal and wanted it to happen because it feels “nice” and in the moment I “want” the fake arousal over the “child” and in the moment I feel “attracted to the child but after this I’m met with guilt and so so many compultions such as showing, washing my bedding etc etc CAN OCD MAKE YOUT BODY ENJOY SOMETHING!!? Please help!!!

Anyone experience intrusive thoughts of their children during intimate moments? Have you done erp to this? I had one and continued slightly before running and needing to vomit now feel guilty anyone else experienced this?