I have a fear of getting better. Like when I wonder if something's a sin, I use OCD like "even if I'm wrong, mental illness lessens culpability" but then what if my OCD goes away I get that pretty much no one is 100% of what is and isn't sin so how do I know what to avoid *sigh*

Sometimes but just the thought like that shows you want to get better

I do. I just don't know how to do so.safely if that makes sense

i get it. i think it all depends on your relationship with God. ask him to show you right from wrong, but also don’t stress yourself trying to be perfect. we all sin, he knows this. what’s important is so be the best you can be and try to keep your relationship with him