I have a fear of getting better. Like when I wonder if something's a sin, I use OCD like "even if I'm wrong, mental illness lessens culpability" but then what if my OCD goes away I get that pretty much no one is 100% of what is and isn't sin so how do I know what to avoid *sigh*

My faith stays rooted in fear I don’t know how to stop it. I will be okay trying not to worry and let God handle my situations but then see something and go down a rabbit hole and spiral so bad. Cuz I feel like when I don’t worry then I’m not paying attention to anything going on and just going on with my life. I don’t want to follow him out of fear but I do so am I even really following him

buying a rug and nail clippers would send me to hell. Why do I worry that these things would send me to hell? I'm always gauging every impression upon my mind and heart, and wondering if God is speaking to me or not. I often wonder if God is warning me against little things that could send me to hell. What I have learned is that people who have OCD often have a lot of confusion about hearing from God. Sometimes their OCD is telling them they can't do something, but they think God is actually warning them. I'm working on this. Like I said, it took me an hour, but I eventually went in and bought the rug and the nail clippers. Was I SURE that I was going to be safe and not destined for hell? No, I went in and bought the things even though I still wasn't completely sure if it was the right and safe thing to do. But in the end, I think I am being obedient to God when I take steps against OCD. And so, even though I still had uncertainty, I went and bought a rug and nail clippers. And now I'm going to trust in the promises of God that I am still saved, even though I did something I wasn't sure about. I've had a lot of practice doing this over the years. I wish just making a shopping trip was straightforward and not full of rumination. But life is not that easy for me. OCD sure makes life harder than it has be. Lol 😀😀🤣😂

As a practicing devout Catholic I am often very conflicted about determining my moral culpability and if my thoughts and actions are mortal sins. A lot feels at stake here since it’s about offending God and whether or not I need to go to reconciliation so I don’t go to hell. It doesn’t seem prudent to say “maybe, maybe not”. What am I to do?