I am so happy for you! I hope not to damping it but I really need some help
Ok , let me try to give you my best advice and something that has started to help me , at one point I heard in a interview from an OCD therapist who specializes in the area that told that no amount of reassurance is enough for OCD and all compulsions that you do are just going to keep OCD longer , so what he recommend to do in SO-OCD cases , is you need to accept that there is a possibility that you could be attracted to people of the same gender ( as I said no amount of reassurance is enough ) and move on with your straight life , you will notice that you will gain more certainty by doing this than anything else , I have a lot of triggers especially around attractive guys and homossexual ones but not everything is a trigger for me anymore and I’m able to at least live my day and get out of bed and not be looking all day for research on the internet
And other than that , I would recommend you to know that you can find others of the same sex attractive and not want to engage in any sort of sexual experience , my mom is straight and she feels uncomfortable when she sees scenes of women kissing and that stuff but she always finds other women attractive and even say when she finds , with men that’s more difficult because we have to be more serious and we are expected to always be so masculine to a point where we ( straight man ) don’t even like to say when we find another guy attractive but we always find someone of the same gender attractive , it’s just normal behavior of human nature
@2022Recovery Thank you! I’ve always felt very uncomfortable with scenes of women kissing but I can easily spot out a pretty woman. I identify as a straight woman, and want to be a straight woman, so I obsess and get scared that I’m bi/lesbian/asexual. It always changes. Typically I obsess I’m bi. Acceptance is the hard part. I try to remind myself it is ok to find people attractive, we have eye balls, we’re human, it’s normal. My mom is the same way, she’s a straight woman and agrees women are beautiful and very aesthetic. However, with soocd it can be very difficult to draw that line. It becomes really blurry and feels like more than an attraction. When I was 13 I was introduced to p*rn and always watched girls. I used to think that 100% meant that I was bi, but now, after growing up and talking about it with my therapist, it’s completely normal for straight women to watch girls in p*rn or straight men to watch men in p*rn and it’s a lot more common than you think. Sorry for the ramble, I just really appreciate you saying that it’s okay to find PEOPLE attractive even if you don’t want any sort of sexual experience with them. OCD can really latch onto that and take a toll on you.
I definitely have gotten triggered by movie and TV shows to the point where I would often avoid trying new ones in fear of it triggering something :( i try not to avoid any now but I sometimes give in, I have done better with it though so progress!!