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I understand your struggle, it’s okay to find girls pretty, it doesn’t mean you WANT to be with a girl. OCD can really twist that.
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You should see some of the other posts I made. I’ve been up since 2:30 in the morning basically. I just said probably not I don’t like the way I was feeling because I was thinking about guy parts and said probably not when I am straight now I don’t understand why I would say probably not I am straight and I can’t breathe I said probably not why did I smile like I did I’m not like that I’m not gay there’s no probably I don’t even know what I’m thinking anymore
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@Bookworm91 As the day goes on, the posts are harder to find. I’m sorry you’re dealing with yjis
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@linds💕 This*
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@linds💕 I imagine someone asking me if I’m straight and say not but it is yes not no why did I say probably why did I say not I am straight why did I say that I am completely straight I’m not gay I know that I’m not bisexual I’m scared I felt like reluctance on that but I’m not by I why did I say probably not I am completely straight there’s no probably I can’t swallow and I can’t breathe and I keep imagining someone asking me if I am but I’m no I’m not gay I’m straight why would I say otherwise I am striaght
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@Bookworm91 I’ve had those thoughts too like if someone asked me what would I say? It gets so confusing.
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I don’t know if you have a cat but mine likes to sniff my face for whatever reason. And I imagined being open and saying I am I do not receptive I don’t wanna kiss any girl and I feel worse when I say that I don’t want to but I don’t wanna kiss a girl I’m not open to it why does that happen when I’m doing something innocent like letting my cats sniff me I meant I don’t want to feel funny anywhere a little down there I don’t want to kiss a girl I’m not up to it and now I make a face like I don’t know what’s going on
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Classic OCD, it preys on things you value most. I understand.
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@linds💕 Thanks for your understanding
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@Bookworm91 Of course, I go through the same exact things. You aren’t alone.
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@linds💕 No matter how difficult it may seem, or real it may feel. There is someone who knows exactly what you’re going through and how difficult it is.
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Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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hey guys, i am really really struggling and i feel like crying. evry day i get this feeling of sexual attraction to the same gender, and i get those feelings even just thinking about it now. i hste them and want them to go away but they simply won’t and it has me thinking that this is just how my life is gonna be like. when i was fully healed or atleast thought i was healed from the false attraction and soocd, i still sometimes got that attraction feeling, and i would force my body not to feel it. i hated it and was scared of liking it so i would like stop breathing and make it stop. it was only ever occasional but this is making me concerned now too, because i still sometimes felt that feeling when i was healed. now currently my main trigger is masculine girls, but when my soocd first started i had no false attraction or attraction like this towards girls, and it was all just in my mind like saying, “don’t look at that girl or you’re gay.” there was one point in my soocd where i was worried about being attracted to my friends, but i am greatful in the sense of i know that that is not true and my main issue is the false attraction watching videos and i have experienced it once in real life too and i hated it. please lmk what i should do or even if you can relate. i am sick of feeling th is way, and i am a christian too so this makes it harder. i’ve tried everything like accepting it, or trying to even say to myself yes u do like it but it always just leads to me being scared.
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I won’t explain this again if you’ve been or going through it you know what I’m talking about. I felt good about women about an hour ago and now I’m worrying again I’m anxious and the groinals are back and it’s so annoying because I can’t study. And honestly I’m so sick and tired of this. I’ve been a girl crazy my whole life and my mind randomly decides “well what if you are gay” like bro. I’ve never seen a guy that way and in general IT WAS NEVER SOMETHING I THOUGHT ABOUT OR ASSOCIATED MYSELF WITH. IVE NEVER FELT ANYTHING TOWARDS A MAN AND NOW IT FEELS LIKE IT RANDOMLY FLIPPED. I CANT DO THIS BRO. WHY WOULD THIS HAPPEN IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH INSECURITIES ALREADY AND MY ATTRACTION WAS THE ONLY REAL THING I HAD LEFT AND NOW THIS. HOW MUCH DO YOU HATE ME GOD.
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