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I understand your struggle, it’s okay to find girls pretty, it doesn’t mean you WANT to be with a girl. OCD can really twist that.
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You should see some of the other posts I made. I’ve been up since 2:30 in the morning basically. I just said probably not I don’t like the way I was feeling because I was thinking about guy parts and said probably not when I am straight now I don’t understand why I would say probably not I am straight and I can’t breathe I said probably not why did I smile like I did I’m not like that I’m not gay there’s no probably I don’t even know what I’m thinking anymore
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@Bookworm91 As the day goes on, the posts are harder to find. I’m sorry you’re dealing with yjis
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@linds💕 This*
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@linds💕 I imagine someone asking me if I’m straight and say not but it is yes not no why did I say probably why did I say not I am straight why did I say that I am completely straight I’m not gay I know that I’m not bisexual I’m scared I felt like reluctance on that but I’m not by I why did I say probably not I am completely straight there’s no probably I can’t swallow and I can’t breathe and I keep imagining someone asking me if I am but I’m no I’m not gay I’m straight why would I say otherwise I am striaght
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@Bookworm91 I’ve had those thoughts too like if someone asked me what would I say? It gets so confusing.
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I don’t know if you have a cat but mine likes to sniff my face for whatever reason. And I imagined being open and saying I am I do not receptive I don’t wanna kiss any girl and I feel worse when I say that I don’t want to but I don’t wanna kiss a girl I’m not open to it why does that happen when I’m doing something innocent like letting my cats sniff me I meant I don’t want to feel funny anywhere a little down there I don’t want to kiss a girl I’m not up to it and now I make a face like I don’t know what’s going on
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Classic OCD, it preys on things you value most. I understand.
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@linds💕 Thanks for your understanding
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@Bookworm91 Of course, I go through the same exact things. You aren’t alone.
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@linds💕 No matter how difficult it may seem, or real it may feel. There is someone who knows exactly what you’re going through and how difficult it is.
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I won’t explain this again if you’ve been or going through it you know what I’m talking about. I felt good about women about an hour ago and now I’m worrying again I’m anxious and the groinals are back and it’s so annoying because I can’t study. And honestly I’m so sick and tired of this. I’ve been a girl crazy my whole life and my mind randomly decides “well what if you are gay” like bro. I’ve never seen a guy that way and in general IT WAS NEVER SOMETHING I THOUGHT ABOUT OR ASSOCIATED MYSELF WITH. IVE NEVER FELT ANYTHING TOWARDS A MAN AND NOW IT FEELS LIKE IT RANDOMLY FLIPPED. I CANT DO THIS BRO. WHY WOULD THIS HAPPEN IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH INSECURITIES ALREADY AND MY ATTRACTION WAS THE ONLY REAL THING I HAD LEFT AND NOW THIS. HOW MUCH DO YOU HATE ME GOD.
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hi guys i added to list. i’m freaking out i just need some help. signs of comphet (comphet is when lesbians who don’t know it and just follow norms and believe there straight) ive felt: “I never felt anything when kissing boys and totally thought that was normal… I talk to men, go on dates, but I think it’s to keep my life ‘interesting’ and have something to talk about with friends.” • lack of deep, natural emotional connection • • talking about my boyfriend to other people made me feel “cool”, “worthy”, “interesting” and felt like a way to prove myself • being able to clearly articulate all the reasons I liked a guy crush/my boyfriend (he’s smart, funny, kind, handsome, etc) whereas with a girl crush I can’t exactly put my finger on why I like them but I’m just naturally drawn to them • never missing my exes or feeling heartbroken about them (i would feel sad from being lonely and no longer having that daily routine of having someone to talk to, but didn’t necessarily miss that specific person) • i was always very hesitant about “becoming official” with a guy i would be seeing and would make him wait before deciding to date because i “didn’t know if i really liked him or not” only being aroused by their the man’s desire for me • Thinking I was cooler than other girls because I didn't spend any time thinking about how cute boys were or being "boy-crazy". I was under the impression for a while that I must just be less shallow than other people because I didn't really take looks into account when I had a crush on a boy, I only factored in their personality. chasing the ego boost more than emotional closeness agreed with friends or mom about someone being attractive even if you didn’t feel it—another big flag being bored, ditching serious commitment, chasing the drama again it also feels like i’m acting a lot of the time to make it more romantic cause i cringe When you fantasize about men, it is mostly just enacting a kind of narrative. More focused on movement than features- the men in your fantasies might be faceless or blank-featured or their bodies might symbolize some emotion. you might not even be in the in the fantasy, but instead another faceless woman might be. You might even imagine yourself as the man. The narrative follows the sexual script, but the details are more vague and abstract and might even shift and change throughout the fantasy. i dont care about like what guys looks like. like my sister saw a video of a guy working out and was like got damn omg gotta like that. if i saw that i would prob be like damn to try and prove something to myself but i don’t really understand what i should feel it feels like i relate to so much comphet after i read it on reddit and it doesn’t even make me want to cry and die anymore. it feels like i tolerate men or have done it for attention or because i thought it was going to happen at some point cause it was what was happening around me like sister and friends. i’m scared ill never find someone i want to marry that’s a man it feels like it’s all just comphet and i don’t want to actually be with a man the more my meds work and anxiety lessens the more the fear feels real because i can’t get myself anxious about it anymore. i can about other stuff but not this. i always told myself i don’t chase i attract. maybe thats cause i never wanted a big badly enough. maybe what im missing is a girl what if that ends up feeling more real Straight people don’t need to talk themselves into what’s hot. like during the hocd break i would try and like see what was “hot” and and be like yeah that’s hot. i also i refused to masturbate to women and not think about it because i didn’t want it to prove that i still liked it but i mean idk if that was left over hocd
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I was on yt and I saw this kid whom I thought was pretty, but then I got a weird thought, and I got worried, I started physically panicking and runnin around, telling myself it wasn’t really attraction, idk if I’m lying to myself or not, I tried using AI for reassurance, but it didn’t work, this is the first time I spiraled since like 2 months… I can’t stand it I’m scared… idk it feels like I’m lying to myself, idk if it was sexual attraction or not, I thought she was pretty idk if it means something, I keeep rewatching the video to test myself. Please help me please.
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