I'm miserable, so down with these thoughts like I want to be with a man. What have I got to do ?. How can I continue if thus is making me miserable?

It just feels as tho I want to? And I have men in my head all the time. Its driving me nuts.

@Ihateocd83 Me too! It feels as though I want to act on my thoughts. I’m thinking about women all the damn time. Sometimes I feel like it would just be easier to say I’m bi. But When you check, and ruminate, and reassure, or whatever you do as compulsions..it’s only luring you more in. It’s going to feel more real. It’s going to become more confusing. I feel like I’m going nuts too, but just hold onto what you value. It’s going to be a hard ride, but I promise it will all be okay.

@linds💕 I can't continue like this for the rest of my life. I would rather be dead. I've even said I would marry a man in my head. And know it just pops up know and then

@Ihateocd83 It is difficult, I know. But you are not your thoughts or your feelings. I understand that feeling. I think about that frequently. Just like @Bookworm91 said, hang in there! You are stronger than this. I promise you🤣

@linds💕 I’m sorry to bother you I don’t wanna come across like I’m stalking you or anything I’m just really scared and some of the other people I speak to about things that concern me aren’t around right now. I went to the laundry room to put some stuff in the wash and some woman was there in front of the first washer because there’s three total. And an acted like I do and I’m frightened I nodded and I said I am I don’t wanna be OK with it I don’t wanna be open I don’t wanna squeeze boobs I don’t wanna make out with her I said it’s not but it does feel bad how can I say it’s not that bad when it is I don’t really feel anything except maybe like emptiness on the inside surrounded by tension it is that bad I don’t wanna do anything with boobs and I can’t stop every time I try to imagine making out with a guy my hand goes out like I do but I don’t wanna squeeze boobs and I don’t like looking at a woman saying that’s not pretending what it would be that bad I keep some scared it’s not in for me like what does it say about me then I’m not and say I am when I’m not OK with it I don’t wanna squeeze boobs I don’t wanna be OK with that I keep saying it’s not it is that bad it doesn’t feel like anything/it doesn’t feel good at the same time did you know what I mean

@Bookworm91 I have those intrusive thoughts too, all the time!! You aren’t alone. Let the thoughts pass by without labeling them as good or bad. Give them room in your mind. And remember, accepting thoughts doesn’t mean agreeing with the thoughts. I’m learning too!!

@linds💕 So is accepting and agreeing with the thoughts the same thing ?

@Ihateocd83 No, accepting the thoughts and agreeing with the thoughts are two different things. With OCD, we need to learn to accept the thoughts. Meaning, allowing them to be there and accepting their presence. Allowing that space for them. It feels very unnatural at the beginning, you’ll feel a lot of resistance but in the long run, it is worth it. Accepting the thoughts to be there DOES NOT mean you agree with them:)

@linds💕 And I’m still learning the same thing!!

@linds💕 Thanks for your help. I had an OK day. And soon as i was on my own thoughts start spiralling. Why do thoughts dissappear when I drink alcohol? X

@Ihateocd83 I’m the same way, whenever I drink I feel 100000% okay. It’s so weird, but obviously, the next day is also really bad. Yup, whenever I’m on my own my thoughts spiral, but also whenever I’m around people all I want to do is be alone so I can “think my thoughts” you know?