- Username
- idont241
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Mine got real bad last night. I was watching a youtube video and enjoying the fact that i thought one of the guys in it was really cute. My brain suddenly crashed in with "you like him because he looks like a girl" which was literally in no way true whatsoever. I just sort noticed it as an ocd thought and then later in the video several girls showed up and i absolutely panicked. My brain went haywire with "do you want to kiss them?! You DO" which forced me immediately into a compulsion. The spiral was so bad and horrible and then once it was over and my head cleared i was like "...wait a minute. Dammit!!" Its absolutely crazy how ocd can twist you and program your brain certain ways despite having tons of evidence to the contrary. Because its chasing that compulsory relief. Thats what it wants.
I relate to both posts SO much!! Ocd could give a rats ASS about evidence. There’s absolutely no way to convince it, it’s a fruitless task. Sometimes I try to just laugh at it. Like I’ll have the thought, and then as fast as I can before the anxiety sets in I’ll be like “haha yea SURE”. Mostly though I just calmly hold off the anxiety for as long as I can until “it” gets bored and leaves me alone.
Thats exactly how it feels like! Thank you!
yeah! everytime i go to my therapist and she asks me what evidence is behind my worry i’ll b like “uhh wait actually not really anything, except this one, small thing that happened two years ago” and she will literally give me 10 straight up SCIENCE facts as to why that worry is not worth spending time on, but damn it’ll still pop up the the next hour and the evidence seems all forgotten
Please tell me how to overcome religious OCD
I don’t have religious ocd so I can’t tell you. Please, only reply with helpful replies. I know you are struggling, but by commenting “please tell me how to overcome religious ocd” on every post isn’t going to help. Put your post under the right tag and people that are going through it too will help you. But I really don’t know how to, I am sorry
OK thanks
This thing gets weirder and weirder I swear. I literally woke up, right. And my mind immediately went “What if you don’t have OCD? You’d just be really bi” and I went along pretending that I didn’t know about OCD and I was just experiencing denial. Then I scrolled on twitter and went on my friend’s page and then my mind went “why don’t you like her? There’s nothing wrong with her. I thought you were supposed to have a crush on her” Here’s the worst part in this: I’m now convinced that HOCD is a huge lie that I made up and it’s homophobic for me to suffer from this theme of OCD and label my “attractions” to the same sex as “bouts of anxiety.” Therefore, I’m not only a bad person, but a liar.
All my life I had labeled myself as bisexual. And I was OK with that! It never really made me uncomfortable or doubt. Even know, when I think about the possibility of me being bisexual, or just straight I feel alright and normal!! I don’t have a SOCD crap attack over it! BUT when me being a lesbian is involved, that’s when my OCD explodes!! Anyone else get like that?
Question - my mind uses any trigger to prove I am gay. My mind kind of auto defaults to the ‘worst case scenario’. I’m kind of stuck in this mindset that I ‘believe it’, and if I didn’t, I wouldn’t be suffering from the ongoing anxiety. Do others have a similar feeling? Concern? Experience? I’ve been battling what I think is SOOCD since I was about 25/26. Literally overnight it felt like my brain broke. Infatuated by a new GF, woke up. Had the thought “you feel nothing for her”. Obsessive worry, figuring out why. Led to “you are gay”. I’ve been diagnosed twice by two seperate therapists, but as we know, it’s hard to believe you have ocd. Ultimately, I’ve never thought of men in a romantic way until my brain broke. I still don’t think I do, but I can’t stop being sick with anxiety that I have changed or that I’m lying to myself?
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