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I relate strongly to this and struggle with the same thing. I wish I knew the answer. I have pocd becuase I randomly obsessed out of nowhere about a couple past events and thought this might mean I’m a P!
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Unfortunately me too. I’m so scared. All I know is I wasn’t aware at the time which isn’t an excuse. It was a mistake I made, yes but it wasn’t from bad intentions at all.
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Yes and I believe you didn’t have bad intentions. When you were younger you were unaware of what you are aware of now. As hard as it is, show yourself forgiveness. The devil wants us to be so upset and consumed by past mistakes and he thrives off making us miserable. Jesus offers us forgiveness and a chance to move forward. Hang in there❤️
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@Anonymous_1 It’s so hard to because of what happened it keeps trying to convince me I’m a p or “monster” and what if I’m as bad as a criminal stuff like that. I’ve heard ocd can blow things out of proportion and when I explained on here what happened before people didn’t think it was that bad but to me I hold myself to a high standard and I’m very hard on myself. I always have been. I really needed that thank you. It seems like no matter how much I pray about it or ocd in general it just gets worse and then I get discouraged. I just want all this to go away forever 💔
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@Just Breathe ❤️ I’m sorry your going through this🥺 ocd is so so hard. I completely to relate to everything you said. I’ll be doing fine then boom a memory hits that feels like true evidence I’m a monster. I’ll get so shut down from it and so depressed. I know it’s so hard but try answering your past memories with “maybe it does mean something about me maybe it doesn’t” it will help take away the power of ocd.
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@Anonymous_1 I know I do that too. I get so depressed and sad and then for about a week I’m obsessing and ruminating and questioning and it puts me in a horrible spiral. I’m also about to start my period too which could have a lot to do with it maybe? I will try that. Saying maybe, maybe not scares me so much because the thoughts of being a monster terrify me but if it helps with ocd, I will try my best. Thank you for helping me I really do appreciate it. God bless!
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@Just Breathe ❤️ Yes my ocd got really bad last time I had my period. I know it’s so hard to answer maybe with this theme. I hope you feel better❤️
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@Anonymous_1 Thank you and you too
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- 19w
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
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Hi everyone, I’m new here, and I wanted to share my experience. I’ve been struggling for over a year now on obsessing over a mistake. And the rumination of the mistake I made has been overwhelming and exhausting in those two years. I feel like such a horrible person. At the time, I didn’t realize what I was doing would affect me so much. When I realized it was wrong, I just said I’ll never do it again, and I moved on. But then months later, I was reminded of what I did, and I felt like I did the worst thing in the world, and that my life will never be normal again. And ever since then, it’s been a constant thought. And it’s exhausting. I have been able to open up to my family and a close friend about it and their reactions were so nonchalant compared to what my brain has been telling me. They say it wasn’t even that bad, and that I shouldn’t be beating myself up. I tell them how badly I feel and they just act like it was nothing. I thought that would help, but my brain continues to tell me how horrible of a person I am and I obsess over this one mistake I made two years ago. I’ve learned from it, I’ve moved on, I’ve opened up about it, I’ve gotten reassurance, but yet it still eats at me. It’s constant some days. Where all I wanna do is lay down in a corner and never leave. I feel like my life will never be normal again and I’ll never experience happiness again. Whenever I smile or feel any type of joy my brain tells me to stop and reminds me that I’m a bad person and I don’t deserve to be happy. Even though everyone tells me what I did wasn’t even that bad. And that it doesn’t make me who I am. But guess it’s not enough and I’m really running out of options.
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- 14w
Does anyone deal with rumination with their childhood past mistakes. Deep down I know I didn’t know any better but then I start having thoughts and it gets worse after that. I also recently have dealt with death in the family, started my period, started college and just moved to my own apartment this last month. :-/ I genuinely just wish I could let go of my past I feel like I could be a better person for myself mentally if I could just let it go.
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