I have a thought for a split second about my real event and then I start ruminating about all of it and the guilt comes back all over again when I hadn’t thought about it in a while. What do I do before it starts getting worse? I’m trying to remind myself it’s in the past, there’s nothing I can do about it that I wish I could, and that I was younger back then and stupid and didn’t know at the time what I was doing was wrong I was just around being a teenager at the time and I would never make the same mistakes again. Man this is horrible. I thought I was past this once and for all 💔

I relate strongly to this and struggle with the same thing. I wish I knew the answer. I have pocd becuase I randomly obsessed out of nowhere about a couple past events and thought this might mean I’m a P!

Unfortunately me too. I’m so scared. All I know is I wasn’t aware at the time which isn’t an excuse. It was a mistake I made, yes but it wasn’t from bad intentions at all.

@Just Breathe ❤️ Yes and I believe you didn’t have bad intentions. When you were younger you were unaware of what you are aware of now. As hard as it is, show yourself forgiveness. The devil wants us to be so upset and consumed by past mistakes and he thrives off making us miserable. Jesus offers us forgiveness and a chance to move forward. Hang in there❤️

@Anonymous_1 It’s so hard to because of what happened it keeps trying to convince me I’m a p or “monster” and what if I’m as bad as a criminal stuff like that. I’ve heard ocd can blow things out of proportion and when I explained on here what happened before people didn’t think it was that bad but to me I hold myself to a high standard and I’m very hard on myself. I always have been. I really needed that thank you. It seems like no matter how much I pray about it or ocd in general it just gets worse and then I get discouraged. I just want all this to go away forever 💔

@Just Breathe ❤️ I’m sorry your going through this🥺 ocd is so so hard. I completely to relate to everything you said. I’ll be doing fine then boom a memory hits that feels like true evidence I’m a monster. I’ll get so shut down from it and so depressed. I know it’s so hard but try answering your past memories with “maybe it does mean something about me maybe it doesn’t” it will help take away the power of ocd.

@Anonymous_1 I know I do that too. I get so depressed and sad and then for about a week I’m obsessing and ruminating and questioning and it puts me in a horrible spiral. I’m also about to start my period too which could have a lot to do with it maybe? I will try that. Saying maybe, maybe not scares me so much because the thoughts of being a monster terrify me but if it helps with ocd, I will try my best. Thank you for helping me I really do appreciate it. God bless!

@Just Breathe ❤️ Yes my ocd got really bad last time I had my period. I know it’s so hard to answer maybe with this theme. I hope you feel better❤️