I have a thought for a split second about my real event and then I start ruminating about all of it and the guilt comes back all over again when I hadn’t thought about it in a while. What do I do before it starts getting worse? I’m trying to remind myself it’s in the past, there’s nothing I can do about it that I wish I could, and that I was younger back then and stupid and didn’t know at the time what I was doing was wrong I was just around being a teenager at the time and I would never make the same mistakes again. Man this is horrible. I thought I was past this once and for all 💔

Unfortunately me too. I’m so scared. All I know is I wasn’t aware at the time which isn’t an excuse. It was a mistake I made, yes but it wasn’t from bad intentions at all.

@Anonymous_1 It’s so hard to because of what happened it keeps trying to convince me I’m a p or “monster” and what if I’m as bad as a criminal stuff like that. I’ve heard ocd can blow things out of proportion and when I explained on here what happened before people didn’t think it was that bad but to me I hold myself to a high standard and I’m very hard on myself. I always have been. I really needed that thank you. It seems like no matter how much I pray about it or ocd in general it just gets worse and then I get discouraged. I just want all this to go away forever 💔

@Anonymous_1 I know I do that too. I get so depressed and sad and then for about a week I’m obsessing and ruminating and questioning and it puts me in a horrible spiral. I’m also about to start my period too which could have a lot to do with it maybe? I will try that. Saying maybe, maybe not scares me so much because the thoughts of being a monster terrify me but if it helps with ocd, I will try my best. Thank you for helping me I really do appreciate it. God bless!

@Anonymous_1 Thank you and you too