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I'm so sorry. I feel you! I once stepped in what was actually a large amount of somone else's period blood in a public restroom! I threw out my shoes...haha... I was terrified and it wrecked me for a while but I got through it and you will too. ❤
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- 3y
That would kill me… just the thought of it I’d awful. I don’t know how to feel okay with it.. I’m gonna get rid of it and clean that spot on the floor but I’m scared I stepped on it and tracked the germs around the floor already. Should I also throw my slippers out?
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@Anonymous I wouldn't know better than you. I think you will be okay. I think about statistics a lot. What are the odds the blood is yours? Pretty high given the circumstances. In the unlikely case that it isn't yours, what are the odds that the persons whose blood it is has a blood borne illnesses? Unlikely In the Unlikely event they did have an illness, what are the chances you'd get it? Even less. This is how I comfort myself
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@Ocd life I disagree
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@Ocd life That's fine that you believe that.
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@Ocd life If something so simple and easy gives me one time comfort I'm fine with it. I know what my compulsions are and I know what compulsions feel like. Please don't try to tell me you know me better. Maybe for you it would be a compulsion.
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@Ocd life It is. But sometimes the fear is way too scary to go on without at least one compulsion. Maybe with time over the course of recovery it’ll be possible to go without that reassurance/ruminating. This particular instance for me was so hard I did a physical compulsion, got reassurance from two loved ones, and still don’t feel completely okay about it. For me, doing this mental analysis compulsion and only that compulsion would be such a win. I’m definitely far from that point though :(
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@Anonymous Plus when your thinking is so distorted even though it’s technically reassurance I feel like it’s kind of necessary to get a reality check. Especially with contamination ocd. Any average joe can logically realize something like say magical thinking isn’t possible (I struggled with that type of ocd before as a child and even at the time knew it wasn’t logical). But with contamination ocd, with fears of germs and illness, if you’re not a healthcare professional or someone who has studied the science of these things it’s so hard to know what’s real or not. Am I wrong? Is it possible to overcome contamination fears without any reality checks or reassurance at all? I’m genuinely asking lol cause I don’t know.
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@Anonymous I agree! Contamination ocd is very different to some of the more thought based ones. I know they say there's no difference but I've experienced both and I definitely think the reality check and even getting confirmation from medical professionals is important sometimes. I mean we live in the real world, not a bubble. There are legitimate threats our there.
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Oh yea bloodborn illness is not easy to transmitted even with contact with blood. I still freak out but I tell myself this a lot.
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Thanks this helped. It’s so hard cause my ocd wants the chances to be completely 0 not just unlikely but I guess that’s just what I have to learn to be okay with
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@Anonymous Yea somone once told me you can't live expecting perfect odds.
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@compulsion5000 Which is so scary when it comes to things like deadly diseases. It feels so hard to accept. Like am I really supposed to just be ok with the fact that there’s not a 0% chance of something that awful happening? Ugh! Lol
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@Anonymous Believe me I feel you. I went through a phase believing my son would get rabbies... the whole "I has to be zero!" Thing hit me hard but the truth is, if the risk of danger has to be zero then we shouldn't ever drive cars or do a lot of things necessary to get the most out of life.
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*it gas to be zero (not I lol)
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- 21w
I'm keeping it light hearted but I really desperately need some help. Just to preface this is very tmi. I thought it was just gonna be a quick bathroom stuff. No! That would be silly of course, so number two decided to screw things up ROYALLY. And please bear with me because I am coping with humour 😭😭. So I went, but sometimes, tmi, I struggle to.... Get it all. Out. If you know what I mean. Which is pretty awful to the point I'm like genuinely praying. Because you can't clean up properly if you're not done. So I'm in the bathroom, trying, for over half an hour. And I finally give up pretty much and try and clean up. Oh no, that was a huge mistake. But what else could I do? It was so messy that I wanted to just get in the shower and be done with it. Onto the things I'm worrying about I guess. On the tp (tmi, I'm WARNING 😭😭) it was.... Messy, and there were very loose specks on the tp. Which is an issue, because I used wet wipes which needs to be binned and not flushed, so I have to carry the tp-wipe combo over to the bin, which means carrying it over where my legs are, and thus where my clothes also are. I hate it. I'm now paranoid specks fell into my underwear! Great! Love it. I'm also paranoid specks or just #2 in general went on my hand. And, believe me, with the state of things, it was POSSIBLE. So when I'm finally done and wash my hands, of course that isn't going to feel like enough. I have really short nails, so short they're painful, and I'm always terrified stuff gets under them. So, I use a nail brush while washing my hands. I also filed them down (which HURT) because I'm convinced that could get rid of anything underneath them. But it still doesn't feel enough. Because I have loose skin and hangnails around my nails, and I'm paranoid as well that stuff gets under dry skin. Not to mention my hands are so dry from washing that they're cracked and flaky and they peel, so I am worried that #2 or dirt gets under the flakes of skin. I know it sounds stupid, but I am so scared. Usually it feels irrational but it was such a state that I'm convinced there must be a speck of it on me somewhere. On my hands. And I'm terrified. I know I need to accept uncertainty but I'm struggling right now.
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This is a long one lol but basically, a couple of weeks ago I went to the toilet (#2, sorry for the tmi). Let's just say it was messy. I remember that a speck of.. #2.. Fell off the piece of toilet paper. This was probably the worst thing that could ever happen. I can't remember clearly but I'm pretty sure my jeans were on the floor underneath near where the speck could have fallen. There was also a towel. I don't know exactly where it fell as it was so small, but I made sure both the towel and the jeans went in the laundry basket and I cleaned the floor near there. Fast forward to like the next day. My mum does most of the laundry, so she will have picked up all the towels and clothes from the laundry basket and taken them to the wash. The problem is the speck. I don't know where it went but if it was on the towel and she picked it up.... Thus, contaminated mum. And she also puts clothes away that are dry. I remember that day she put my hoodie in my wardrobe, and I haven't worn it since because I feel it is contaminated. I haven't worn the clothes that have touched the hoodie. This leaves me with not a lot of clothes. And today I finally snapped and picked up a sweatshirt that had maybe touched the hoodie. And now I'm just sat here spiralling, wearing it. What if it touched the speck? What if the speck touched my mum and then touched the hoodie which then touched the sweatshirt I'm wearing? Please I'm so scared.
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