It’s really bad. Like I can’t enjoy guys anymore and I hate it like my guy finally gotten solid shape and I feel bad for saying that because I wanted him skinny and now I’m making faces like I don’t even when I like milk body parts I like pectorals so the fact that it’s I don’t want to think I’m not as obsessed with him as a I hate thinking that I’m not as when I am I’m frightened he’s going away and I don’t want him to when I do love him and he doesn’t know me but I’ve known him for years so that’s a thing.

Yeah I know that when we are worrying about it we notice things more. Like normally I rarely pay attention to girls besides they seem nice, I want to be like them because they are so pretty, I like their clothes, etc. But then I watch a stupid movie and a girl walked around in a bikini and my brain immediately told me that I think she is hot. It really upset me and so I got stuck in more of the ocd cycle. I have also seen people describe having ocd as an illness like a cold or flu. So when we feel like this we don't really seem to be in the mood to like guys. Also ocd can definitely cause your attraction to guys to basically feel like it's disappeared. Though it actually is still there just being overshadowed by all of our other anxiety

@Mak46 I appreciate your input. I’m scared that I am and I don’t wanna lose it for my guy and I’m fre and I responded slightly to this huge guy there’s way more muscular du except I didn’t really like it cause I don’t like huge dudesyou dudes but now when I look at my guy i’m scared I don’t I don’t wanna not feel anything I’m scared I felt I don’t wanna feel anything for the bigger more muscular guy I’m frying I am and I don’t wanna move on from my guy and don’t know I don’t wanna feel anything for the bigger more muscular guy because I usually don’t like them at all and when I saw the big dog I’m like oh definitely not but now I’m feeling funny I don’t want his much bigger chest my guy is not tiny but he’s not huge and I don’t want to not feel anything and I don’t wanna feel anything for the bigger more muscular guy so now it’s attacking that as well I don’t I’m scared I don’t I don’t wanna feel nothing I’m friend and I said can’t control like I have I haven’t wanted to think I have I haven’t moved on I love my guy even though he doesn’t know me and I don’t like that I’m not reacting I don’t want to react to the bigger more muscular guy and I said he can’t control it I said he’s I don’t want him to be he’s not hot. I hope this is just OCD as well I’m frightened and I don’t wanna react to the bigger more muscular guys chest cause my guys not tiny he’s not huge but he’s not tiny and I’m afraid I’m not reacting to him and I don’t want the bigger I keep saying I don’t want him to be the bigger guy is not hot he’s just too big for me like my initial instinct reaction is 0 Gross Way too lumpy sorry I’m sorry

@Bookworm91 I think it's pretty normal to react and find some other guy is attractive even if you are in a relationship. Because at the end of the day you are with your boyfriend because of how he looks but also his personality and how he makes you feel. So yeah you might think some other guys build/muscles looks good. Doesn't mean you want to leave who you are with. Plenty of people in relationships will think someone else is attractive but would never leave their partner because of it. So you are definitely not alone

@Mak46 I’m not In a relationship with my guy but I have loved him and known him for a long time. But the frustrating thing is I’m not trying to act like I’m so unique in different I genuinely don’t like big muscular guys I really don’t and this guy I’m not gonna be mean and say oh he’s horrible he’s just too much you know what I mean so now I feel like OCDs taking away my guy type and just fucking that up as well you know? Cuz I genuinely didn’t think that guy was attractive I saw him so how heavy the muscle was and I was like nope that’s gross no thank you and I’m not again trying to be mean to the other dude I know what you mean I’m just saying I hate everything right now

@Bookworm91 Yeah ocd can really mess with how you view things and I think it is just getting in your head to make you doubt something that is obviously very important to you. Plus it is completely normal to have a type when it comes to who you are attracted to. Some people like bigger muscles and some don't. It clouds how you actually feel and is really good at convincing you that you feel something eelse. Though personally I've tried to notice that with certain thoughts they may feel real or I like them but while thinking all of that I am actually freaking out about it. Which shows how much I actually don't like the thoughts. If I was fine with them they wouldn't take over my mind and make me worry all day. Which seems to be the same with you.

@Mak46 It’s ridiculous. Plus I have ADHD so I feel Like that fuels my ocd in ways those without it aren’t

@Bookworm91 I'm sorry that doesn't sound fun at all. It probably does. Ocd is ridiculous and very annoying. Also seemingly difficult to overcome