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Your OCD does NOT define you. It might feel real and etc, but it is NOT real and will never be. Remember that

That's the best thing for you, I'm glad your taking steps =)

Hey, I feel the same way. I can't look at anything the same anymore. And my OCD kills me, but it's not true. I recommend you to seek treatment immediately. I've seen you on here countless times, and I'm worried about that. Please get help, you need it in the long haul.

I’m so sorry idont241. Have you thought about teletherapy? If you have a laptop with a camera and wifi you can have therapy sessions in the comfort of your own home! I know therapy can get expensive, but there are facilities that do a sliding scale based on your income!

Okay, that’s great! Hoping for easier days for you. Let me know how the course goes for you!!

(corny statement alert) I’d like to think we’re all in this together, and it will help some of us to, at the very least, not feel like we are the only people on the planet that struggle with this invisible disorder!! I hope you’re travels are fun and even though the thoughts and feelings will come, try your hardest to use those times as practice in letting them be there. It’s like trying to hold a ball of burning coal. The coal is going to be hot (the thought will be scary) but all you have to do it put it down and let it roll away by itself (you don’t have to inspect it and pull it apart and look for where it came from- you’ll get burnt!) Good luck!!

Of course! We all have our really really low moments. (Me yesterday). But I’ve been practicing resistance as hard as I could and let me tell you- it works.