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- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you for sharing. You are not alone. I want you to know I care about you and understand, I to am going through what you are going through and my heart goes out to you. I mean this from my heart, You are a good person. You are worthy. And there is forever and always hope. I hope this brings you comfort and healing. No matter how horrid and/or sick your thoughts may be, know that these are normal, we all have them, and you are not alone, and it doesn’t make you a bad person. It is what is in your heart that makes you who you are which I can say is good as a bad person wouldn’t be horrified by bad thoughts in their head, a good person would be horrified by bad thoughts, you are a good person. Remember your thoughts do not define you. We must learn to dance in the rain, we must learn to accept our thoughts for who they are, NOT meaning we are our thoughts or even that we mean them, but acknowledge they are there and let them be… and listen to our hearts. Our hearts are who we truly are. Believe in the good, in light in love. You are worthy, you are loved and surrounded in light forever and always. We will get through this together. May the light of love dance within your heart and nourish your soul. I and we are here for you forever and always so please reach out if you need anything, truly. You are a good person. A gift to this word. There is forever and always hope. Don’t be too hard on yourself and let your light shine. May the light in you shine the light in me and the light in me shine the light in you ( African Proverb). You are loved forever and always. Sending you and your Mom a big hug. And eternal love. ❤️
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- 3y
This isn’t you, you are a good and kind person. I struggle with this theme too and I can tell you that you can recover with erp, it’s possible but you have to stick to it! You deserve to feel good again, you deserve to live your life guilt free! You can do this
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- 20w
some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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- 19w
I don’t know if it’s worth it to keep going. I have so many diagnoses, so little support, and constant struggles with finding the right medication. My immune system is weak, I have multiple deficiencies, and I’m dealing with so many physical health problems on top of severe OCD. It’s just too much. On top of everything, my family treats me so not okay. Every single day is a fight just to keep going—to wake up, to eat, to take care of myself even a little. I’ve lost over ten pounds in the last two weeks from how depressed I’ve been. And instead of support, all I get is blame. My family constantly throws my struggles in my face, calling me selfish, as if I’m choosing this. I am trying so hard to push past all of this. But after five long months of severe OCD, anxiety, depression, panic disorder, and everything else making life unbearable, I am exhausted. And to be called lazy? Selfish? *Worthless*? How am I supposed to keep going when the people around me refuse to see how hard I’m trying? I don’t want this anymore. None of this suffering feels worth it. What am I fighting for just to be treated this way by my own family? To be yelled at for the look on my face, when my face reflects nothing but the stress, panic, and despair I’m drowning in? Am I still supposed to smile for them? This isn’t fair. No one should have to live like this. I don’t deserve to be treated this way, I’m really trying to keep going, but I just want everything to end.
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- 4w
I need to find a solution fast to stop this way I’m living but I don’t think it’s possible, I’m in a constant state of pain from being tormented with guilt and warped memories. I know some of the memories to be true and some are all jumbled together so they get warped. It kills me to not know if I’m evil or not , I’m always thinking of the bad things I did when I was like 13 and didn’t know much about what’s truly right and wrong. I just feel like such a bad bad person , I don’t want any form of relationships at all because then I’ll have to confess everything bad I believe I’ve done or else I’m lying to them about who I am. I don’t really want therapy because I’m not confessing these memories or thoughts to a stranger especially because I’m only 16 and very socially awkward so I won’t be able to open up about this at all. I keep most of all of this in secrecy because I know nothing truly gets rid of the guilt. I also don’t allow myself any sympathy anymore because I just think I don’t deserve that either because evil people don’t deserve any empathy , it’s so hard to live with this. I just needed to get this off my chest since I’ve got no one to talk too
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