Ugh I am out of control! So seven weeks ago I had a baby, she is perfect and healthy and for that I am so thankful. 9 days after she was born I developed a DVT (bad blood clot in my leg). I was devastated! I hah eve come obsessed with this. They have even done two ultrasound recently and told me the blood clots are gone now. I will continue to be on blood thinner another four months. I have been to the ER over 13 times(not including seeing my doctor twice a week!). I am so obsessed, it’s all I can think about. Now after we got the scans back and they were good I’m worried I have some crazy blood clotting disorder. They tested me for the top five and they all came back negative. This is taking over my life. Now I worry that I have something else wrong with me like a brain tumor or cancer ?. My doctor keeps saying we’ve done so much blood work and nothing has shown up. But I’m so stressed

kalk9

Date posted: 6y

I used to freak out about blood clots too after a scare I had. I’m so glad you’re okay!!

Cjs2496

Date posted: 6y

I know how you feel. About two years ago I became very sick for a long time, I couldnt go to school or do things normally because I was always tired or in pain. It took the doctors so long to figure out what was the matter with me, so all that time I was worrying and obsessing so much about the worst case scenarios. Even after I recovered, for a long time I was constantly worried that I was going to get sick again with something worse because it could happen to me. Brain tumors are a huge fear of mine and even today when I get lightheaded I fear it. Instead of rushing to the ER and performing your compulsion, maybe try some ERP. Have some unhealthy food like ice cream. Go out for drinks. And try to resist seeing the doctor for a whole week. Try going out and living life no matter how much your anxiety overwhelmes you. Thats some good ERP. Health is often take it for granted but take advantage of it? Go out and live, because youre healthy and you can

laurlpn

Date posted: 6y

I just had a baby too and I’m dealing with awful harm thoughts but my last episode years back I was obsessed during nursing school that I was sick with a disease or cancer. I went to the ER several times and saw many different doctors, I even had MRIs and sleep studies - I was terrified I had brain cancer or MS. But after months of this obsessing and googling symptoms I got a therapist and was told it was ocd and anxiety/depression. I know it’s hard to believe it can make you feel so crappy but press on!

laurlpn

Date posted: 6y

I think trauma and stress can trigger ocd even if birth went completely fine- I had high blood pressure and had to be induced sooner than expected which was scary for me. So your blood clot was trauma and the birth process is trauma to our body even if it goes perfectly so keep that in mind

Anonymous

Date posted: 22w

Has anyone’s obsessive thoughts changed themes?

I went from intrusive thoughts of hurting people, thinking I did horrible things and not remembering it like running people over with my car etc, to my brain trying to convince me I that I had split personality disorder to now health anxiety. The intrusive thoughts weren’t as bad as this. I’ll get physical symptoms like my heart racing, chest pain, can’t swallow. It’s been causing panic attacks but I’m constantly scared I’m dying. If my mole looks like it changed I freak out and think I have cancer. I had to get a stethoscope to listen to my heartbeat to make sure I don’t have an aortic aneurysm to buying a Fitbit to constantly check my pulse. I went to the ER bc I thought I was dying and now I’m paying a 2 thousand dollar bill when they say my heart is fine. It’s just exhausting.

Aprilshowers...

Date posted: 17w

My OCD

Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I don’t even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like it’s controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and it’s like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like I’m stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I can’t even touch things I use to eat without worrying that I’ll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldn’t even enjoy my own child’s birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my baby’s life and I didn’t know what to do. And now, I’m pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, I’d worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think “you’re gonna pass out! You’re gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I don’t even try to, and I hate it.

Anonymous

Date posted: 16w

Relapse

I'm 20 weeks pregnant, have suffered with ocd since 16. Had a mental break down over a year ago. Here I am feeling like I am relapsing and the thoughts are out of control, and even worse now that I feel guilty I am causing my baby stress when it's not his fault.

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