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- Date posted
- 3y
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
I’m super familiar with this. My Real Event OCD likes to cycle from one event to the next and then the next… until it eventually cycles back to the first. Whichever event is ‘in the spotlight’ is of the upmost importance. The others seem irrelevant or even laughable. I find accepting the stories my mind has told me (even if small possibilities or irrational) as possibilities helps more than trying to fact find. I’m sorry it’s tough for you right now, but keep at it! Maybe give a friend or family member a call to talk about something ‘off topic.’
titaniumonetwotitaniumonetwo
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Yep, I can relate to this, I generally cycle through them. One slight difference I have is that while I generally only have one in focus at a time, a common concern for me is that one being true would make them all true.
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- Date posted
- 3y
^^^^ YES! In a lot of events deal around the same theme or fear that I have. So like for each ocd theme i have there’s multiple real events i ruminate over.
kels89kels89
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
I am going through this right now. I was triggered by a headline I read the other day (the news/internet can be my worst enemy sometimes), and it brought back a memory from two years ago. Caused me to obsess over it all over again. Nothing bad actually happened at the time, but I keep thinking “what if” things had gone horribly wrong. Can’t shake the feeling of guilt I get whenever the worst case scenarios pop into my head.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
Check out episode 223 of The OCD Stories podcast
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