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I’m super familiar with this. My Real Event OCD likes to cycle from one event to the next and then the next… until it eventually cycles back to the first. Whichever event is ‘in the spotlight’ is of the upmost importance. The others seem irrelevant or even laughable. I find accepting the stories my mind has told me (even if small possibilities or irrational) as possibilities helps more than trying to fact find. I’m sorry it’s tough for you right now, but keep at it! Maybe give a friend or family member a call to talk about something ‘off topic.’
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Yep, I can relate to this, I generally cycle through them. One slight difference I have is that while I generally only have one in focus at a time, a common concern for me is that one being true would make them all true.
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^^^^ YES! In a lot of events deal around the same theme or fear that I have. So like for each ocd theme i have there’s multiple real events i ruminate over.
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I am going through this right now. I was triggered by a headline I read the other day (the news/internet can be my worst enemy sometimes), and it brought back a memory from two years ago. Caused me to obsess over it all over again. Nothing bad actually happened at the time, but I keep thinking “what if” things had gone horribly wrong. Can’t shake the feeling of guilt I get whenever the worst case scenarios pop into my head.
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Check out episode 223 of The OCD Stories podcast
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im going to be vague here, but basically i did something in the past that i regret and it became a huge point of my OCD but i have talked to my therapist and i have mostly moved past it. i watched a video by an OCD youtuber that really put it into perspective. anyway, i have been with minimal worry for a few days, but now im having worries related to i think false memory? basically it’s like “oh but what if i said/ did this and just forgot that means i harmed this person im a bad person”. to me it sounds like textbook OCD but im just wondering if anyone else has experienced false memory / real event at the same time. i have a really horrible memory which is making it even more stressful. any responses are appreciated!
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17f Just like the title says. I came to realization that I lost a whole year of life. I remembered my real event in the end of january of 2024. Since then my life has been a living hell. Also kinda made a couple new smaller events through this year. And I know I deserve it cause my event was actually bad. Even people without ocd on reddit agree it was bad. It's still ocd, but I deserve it probably. For this whole year I haven't had a day when I wouldn't think of it. It became my default state to constantly have it on my mind. I walked around, pretended to have fun, talked to people. Most of the time I wasn't really there, I was thinking about my event. My event haunts me when I'm awake, when I'm asleep. I spend this whole year either freaking out, being depressed, thinking on methods to off myself, ruminating, seeking reassurance or trying to distract myself with books, TV shows, social media or daydreaming. Literally barely engaged with reality. So it's so hard to believe a whole year passed... I can barely remember anything that happened during this year. I can't believe this is my life. Probably doesn't really matter cause I don't plan on staying there that long. There is no way I'm going to experience piece with myself. So I will be out in a year or so, since my plan requires some time. Finally will end it all. It just feels very weird. A whole year passed. I was so deep down in my head I didn't even notice. It's scary.
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17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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