I’m so sorry. I just wanted help. I feel like I’m spiraling again 💔

I feel horrible. Thank you so much though. You got this too!

@Just Breathe ❤️ my body is so tired. all the guilt is killing me inside.

@Anonymous_234 Same here. It hurts

@Just Breathe ❤️ if you need someone to talk to, i’m always here! i can relate to some of your posts sm☹️

@Anonymous_234 Thank you I appreciate it and you too. I go into detail about what’s bothering me all the time on here and people tend to ignore me and it makes me feel like I really am a monster when I never in my life had any intention to be. I was young and stupid and did things that I didn’t know at the time were bad because it didn’t even cross my mind. And now I’m struggling so much and hating myself for the things I should of known better and didn’t until much later

@Just Breathe ❤️ i feel you so so so much!! a memory just popped up and it’s ruining my life. it makes me question who i am as a person but i was young and dumb i didn’t know any better. i wish i wouldve just never even played outside or anything. i can’t tell if it’s a real or false memory but it’s killing me. & everytime i try to just let it go my mind tells me “you’re normalizing it because you’re a monster!!!” im not sure if you seen my other posts but it’s the absolute worst.

@Anonymous_234 i never did anything bad but my mind is trying to turn every little situation into something so much worse. like for example i gave my moms friends baby a kiss, i was only like 10 maybe & i didn’t think much of it until right now. my minds telling me i’ve always been a monster and that i should be locked up and die already. it’s been torture living with ocd. my body and mind is so tired.

@Anonymous_234 I might have I’m not sure. I’m so so sorry you are going through this too. These two themes are the worst. I just wish I could go back and change everything knowing what I know now it would of never even happened

@Just Breathe ❤️ me too, i don’t think i could live like this. also im sorry you’re going through this as well this is absolute hell. i can’t even eat without me feeling so guilty.

@Anonymous_234 I completely understand how you feel unfortunately I believe the mistake I made was bad but I didn’t have any intentions of doing anything bad. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I never harmed anyone and never would. I don’t want to be a monster 💔

@Just Breathe ❤️ im only 17 and i already don’t wanna continue with my life anymore. it’s crazy how much power this disorder has over us. i wish i could cure everyone and we’d all be okay for once. & im sure you didn’t do anything bad it’s probably just ocd 😞

@Anonymous_234 Maybe I don’t know. I don’t know if it’s just blowing things out of proportion or if I should really be worried. I’m almost 23 and I already want to give up. I’m so sad and depressed all the time. But don’t give up there’s so much more to life than what OCD holds us back from. I wish I could take everyone’s pain away. It hurts so much all the time I’m just tired of it but I keep thinking what if I deserve this? I don’t know

Thank you. I just don’t understand how one second it’s not even on my mind or bothering me and then the next I’m ruminating and the guilt is eating me up. I’m struggling big time right now

@anonymousss Omg I get similar thoughts like that too. It’s the ones that keep saying that I’m equivalent to a monster for my past and that I need to give up when people have told me to let it go and I deserve forgiveness and I don’t believe them

I hope so. Everything really hurts right now