Vent/Story time So regardless of what my OCD tells me, I do identify as a straight male. When I was 18 years old, my modeling agent (he’s openly gay) kinda groomed me. He tried to convince me that I was gay for over a year because I was a virgin basically. He also had a crush on me & this dude is a narcissist and a manipulator (horrible person). Personally, I realized I was close with him because I tend to be a very codependent person. But after I spoke to my dad about what this person has done to me and said to me (he sexually assaulted me and manipulated me to think it wasn’t his intent) I had to drop him as an agent. Ever since this kind of triggered my HOCD. And ever since my HOCD has been going crazy. “What if he was right about me?” Those kind of thoughts. It’s been hard for me to talk to girls because of the intrusive thoughts I get. I’ve always desired women, sexually and romantically. I’m a virgin because I personally never seeked out to have sex due to my anxiety and obviously my ocd and other mental health issues. I was always just worried about myself and my life to be doing anything like that, if that makes sense. Little vent, not looking for reassurance or anything, just wanted to share my story. Fuck all narcissists :)