i don’t know how much longer i can do this, i feel like my life is pretty much over. i can’t afford a therapist and i’m only getting worse, im scared of myself and i don’t trust myself. i’m scared that i’m going to eventually have to kill myself because i don’t want to hurt anyone else. i don’t want to go through this anymore and i don’t want to end up going crazy

i feel you so so so much on this😞

if you need someone to talk to im always here! don’t hurt yourself, one day we’re all going to overcome this!🥺

thank you so much, it just seems impossible :(

I used to feel this way too but I have gotten better so it’s possible. Have you done any of the NOCD group sessions? I’m pretty sure they’re free. They have helped me so much

i didn’t know there were group sessions, how do i join them?

I have struggled a lot with harm ocd, being scared of myself, and thinking that I’d need to hurt myself so that I don’t hurt others. It’s honestly the most terrifying thing I have been through. I’m glad to know that someone else is also struggling with something very similar to me. I just don’t want you to give up. I also liked the free group sessions and I can leave a link here for that!

yes it’s so so hard and stressful:( it’s also hard for me to distinguish whether i actually like the thoughts or not and that makes me feel sick..I’m afraid that it’s not OCD and i’m actually just a monster. and yes please please link it thank you so much <33

@anonymous4444 Exactly! :/ I feel that way myself. I get so scared that I’m a monster and that I could possibly be “evil,” paychotic, sociopathic, crazy, etc. I’m glad you and me are in this together <33

@AFlowerForYou exactly and the scary part is is that i FEEL like i’m evil and i feel like i like it and that makes me so scared and anxious i hate myself so much it’s almost unbearable. i’m glad i have someone to relate too though <3

@anonymous4444 I feel comforted that you can relate to me so much even though it’s over something that feels so horrible. It is so hard not to be scared and anxious about it!!

@AFlowerForYou i know!! even when you feel fine and your in a good mood do you almost get an urge to think abt the thoughts almost like it’s a habit? i do that and i’m worried that bc i like thinking abt it or it just happens so often that that’s just my thinking pattern now, like i always have to have those thoughts 😭

@anonymous4444 Pretty much!!! I was having a really good day today and then this one thought started bothering me and I was like why can’t you just leave me alone?

@anonymous4444 I think a lot of that has to do with checking to see what your reaction will be to them.

https://www.treatmyocd.com/support-groups

http://www.nocd.com/support-groups

Please don’t give up, I was in your exact same position and some days I still am. However with the right medication, and support groups it’s changed my life. I thought my life was over before. Now I’m really finding out who I am thru my values. I take support groups like every other day otherwise I start to slide. You can do this, I believe in you guys!

thank you so much, im trying but it’s so so so hard :(( i want to try to get on medication but i don’t have money for anything :(

@anonymous4444 I also suggest listening to some podcasts by Jenna overbaugh, she is a NOCD therapist. They helped me a lot too!

Your State should have some resources for you being that you don’t have an income - like State insurance or some way maybe a hospital or dr can help you get on the right meds. Medication has helped me so much too.

Hey, idk if you’re apart of it or not but you should join the discord server. It’s a community of other people dealing with OCD and we tend to have fast responses! Give it a try: https://discord.gg/ZMBSK8ek