I don’t mean to discount anyone’s ocd themes EVER when I say this because every theme of ocd is awful to live with in your day to day life, but I just wish so badly that I could have any other theme besides the one I’m dealing with right now. Every day I question whether or not I deserve to live with these thoughts that I have. I don’t mean to be graphic/triggering there but these thoughts go against everything that I’ve fought for my whole life and I just feel so sad and lost and confused everyday. (ps I’ve dealt with other themes so I’m well aware of how terrible they are, but at least I didn’t feel like an awful and immoral person when I had those thoughts)