Okay, I just read an article that came up on an OCD page that I follow on Facebook. Please don’t read if you’re easily triggered like I was. I knew I shouldn’t have read it but my curiosity got the better of me. This woman writing the article had sexual orientation thoughts and was questioning for a decade before deciding that she was actually lgbt. She said she desperately wanted to be straight, she had all the intrusive thoughts and terrible stuff that comes with ocd, and then got better when she decided it was okay to identify as part of the lgbt community. I’m not sure what she was thinking writing that knowing that other people had those thoughts who might not be gay, or am I just constantly questioning because I’m not fully straight and that’s why these thoughts keep coming back? Am I just having internalised homophobia? Is it really my ocd making me think and feel this stuff or is it just me? It’s very stressful for me as I’m now wondering if after all this time I should just give up and accept it.