- Username
- Nasim
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Hey you can do this! We all support you and you’re putting up a hell of a fight! Keep going!
You are not lazy. You are dealing with some very difficult things. It will get better, hang in there ❤️
Look I'm suffering from false memory OCD and keep forgetting things today my mom asked me about something and I was like u didn't give me anything and things like that my mom told OMG u begin to forget things are u CRAZY. This word hits hard but trusts me my mom didn't mean it our parents love us. Everyone in the world can hate us besides our parents. You are her daughter/son she didn't mean it it was only a word but for us, it does hurt but your mom loves you and she didn't know that you are suffering. You are Strong, not lazy you are dealing with ANXIETY and OCD those two are very strong and you are finding the hope to keep going really BRAVO
You're not alone, you're human and humans have to fall down a lot in order to get better. Pain, struggle and in general suffering exist to make us realize how alive and capable for a better life we are. The more you hurt the more you gain so think of this as just a process, not your end, because it's not. People like us, with mental illness are as deserving of a happy life as mentally healthy people.Life is like a play, and guess who becomes a better player? The one that didn't play the game on normal difficulty but on hard mode.
Thank you everybody 💞your words means a lot
Instead I’m belittled and insulted when I don’t meet their standard. I know I can’t drive, I’m terrified and my OCD makes it even worse. But instead of being encouraged so I feel confident that bough to try it out, I get yelled and screamed at about how I’m a baby and not a real adult and that I need to face reality. Like it’s the worst parenting job ever, what the hell. Now I want to drive even less because I feel even less confident about myself. My dad yells at me because he sees my recluse tendencies and never stops to consider that maybe his belittling is why I never even try. Because I don’t even feel a single shred of hope in myself.
I struggle with self harm and depression. I told my doctor a week ago that I have suicidal thoughts and she put me on an anxiety/depression med and she said it could make things better or worse. I have noticed I barely eat anything anymore and I started to self harm more. I go through my day struggling and I’ve lost my friends and I stay in my room 24/7. I don’t feel like doing anything anymore. People say “oh it’ll get better” or “you’ll overcome it” or “don’t worry it’ll be okay” but guess what it’s not true. I feel like no one gets me or no one will listen to me. No one understands the pain I go through every second of the day trying my hardest to put on a fake smile. I can’t do it anymore. I want it to stop.
So I and my mom got into this big fight yesterday and I said some things I didn't mean to say to her and she said some things and I know what I said was bad but what she said cut deep in me because Even though what I said to her wasn't good her words hurt because going through wat om going through rn is honestly the worst thing a human can go through my worries and fears now all of a sudden now become feeling of Suicide and self-harm and honestly she's right because at this point I'm at a dead end and there's no going back I didn't tell her what was actually going on with me because I know she will never look at me the same and growing up with parents that are Gen x back in the day mental illness is a fucking joke to them apparently and is not taken seriously not all of them are like this but I know a few now I've been thinking about offing myself I don't think I'm gonna make it I'm really struggling.
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