Hi I’m so sorry, I feel like I remember seeing a post of yours about HOCD that really resonated with me. Could we talk?
Yeah what’s up!?
@Cassandragoth I was wondering if you identified as bisexual or straight.
@lennygirl Hmmm. I’m trying not to let labels matter. I sometimes think I’m attracted to girls, but I mostly like men emotionally and physically, and I’m not sure where I lay on that scale. I can only say this when I’m not anxious. When I’m anxious about it, it’s hard to let myself not know, I either like boys or girls. But you have to let yourself not know and really allow that and accept it and accept the anxiety that comes with it.
@Cassandragoth I’m so afraid of being anything but straight, though. I only want to be straight. I don’t understand why this is, but that’s how it is. I have suffered from HOCD on and off since I was 12 and I feel like I have to be gay because of how long it has been.
@lennygirl Yeah I mean I feel the same way when I’m having an episode. It’s just so important to tell yourself that you do not know and you can not know and you will not know and that’s ok. And that doesn’t mean anything. None of this means anything. And if it did, well you’ll never know the meaning. I’m having the same issue with my relationship right now. I keep taking every little thing as oh we aren’t meant to be and I panic because I just want to be with him.
I really like peacefromwithin too :)