I’m at dinner with my family and I feel horrible. I don’t want to be here because I feel like I don’t deserve to eat or be happy or have a good time with my family. My past has been haunting me for so long. I feel so much guilt. I don’t think I could ever be free from this. I hate myself and I want to give up because my mind is doing everything in its power to find proof that I’m a monster and I’m scared that my past mistakes make me one 💔