why am i still doubting myself even if i have the same symptoms as false memory + real event ocd suffers have? deep down i know i would never do that, even if the memory takes place in 2018/2019, but i still ruminate sometimes about it since last december, after i had a nightmare with one of my ocd themes. it makes me feel scared because it felt so real and took place in a real event i want to die somedays because i don't want to live if i really did something wrong

i relate to this so hard. sending love <3

sending love for you too ❤️

This is my main problem. Constantly ruminating over events that happened almost a decade ago at this point. All high school crap that I honestly want to move on from. Things people do in high school doing say anything about who they are years ahead of that the way I see it, yet I'm still fixated on the thoughts sometimes

same! i just remembered a friend about a memory that bring us so much shame, and she didnt even remembered... i remembered about this event for 3 years hoping that she would never talk about the event its like a torture

@anonymous45 I'm really sorry to hear that. It's like our minds are magnifying something that we barely glared over at the time. I just keep thinking of anything like "Oh but look at this stupid thing you did at this age, what if others knew" and "Oh wow, you're having these thoughts, what if people knew that?"

@BigGip09 i hate that my mind is stucked in the past, and even creating memories that i would never do, and making me doubt myself

@anonymous45 I'm really sorry to hear that. My mind is doing the very same thing and it makes it really hard to enjoy the present. Nearly impossible sometimes. I wonder what's caused this imbalance in our minds to think this so much. Makes me feel irredeemable

@BigGip09 sending love ❤️

@anonymous45 Right back at you :)