which memories are ocd and which of them are real? and what if all of them are real? i want to die if these memories about sexual things are real

im trying hard to not search about false memory + real event as a compulsion right now

We have the same ocd. Pls read my new post it may help ♥️

Its quite difficult and its a paradox. The more i hope it isnt real the more anxious i feel. The curse of having a good imagination. sometimes i say wow i have a fucking great imagination. This can tell my brain that its a good thing and it stops looping or atleast loses some power