HELLO! EYES HERE! IT MIGHT HELP. My previous posts here were horrible just results of me drowning with my own feelings. (I don't know if yall remember my previous posts) BTW, I'M 2 WEEKS FREE FROM MY OCD!!! ❤ I'm so so so tired and mad of my ocd & anxiety and it just happened that one night I said to myself enough is enough!! my rumination and compulsion was never a help after all, it never answered my continuous problem solving in my head it just giving me more anxiety. That's why I said to myself "okay I will accept the worst case scenario eventhough it is hard to accept it but I don't care anymore! Past is past!!! I'm not my past. I have my good values today. Today is what most important not the past. Eventhough I did terrible things in the past (that I already repent numerous times) some things maybe I don't remember that I actually did (besides I'm not supposed to remember everything) what matters are my actions today (always choose to do whats right) (and I know to myself that I'm a good person today and will forever be! Plus I don't need anyone's validation with regards to my whole being!) AND I REALIZED THAT WE ARE NOT DESIGNED TO REPENT FOREVER. So my fellow ocd strugglers, ACCEPTANCE IS REALLY THE KEY it was really hard at first but pls TRY because at the end of the day the only true friend we have is ourselves. There are still times that I feel uncomfortable but I try to sit with it and accept that "its just ocd that tries to keep knocking on my door but hell no! I will not open my door for you anymore hah! 😝". We cannot change the past guys I wish we could but no, and we have to accept that. So the present moment is all that matters and we can control the TODAY so I suggest we better make the most out of it! ❤ Believe me, we can still live our lives the way we want to live our lives! Learn to forgive yourselves guys, move on and live with uncertainty. I PROMISE THESE ARE THE BEST THINGS I REALIZED DEEP IN MY HEART 2 WEEKS AGO 🥰 Feel free to ask me questions 🤗🤍

745

Date posted: 3y

I honestly wish I had your optimism... but I’ve had HOCD, POCD, Real event OCD based on the first two, and False memory OCD based on the first two... for two years... it never stops...

milkyshake

Date posted: 3y

I've been struggling with ocd for 2 yrs also and just 2 weeks ago I was thinking of committing suicide because I'm so fed up but at the same time I still want to live a happy life that is why I came up with these realizations that I took deeply in my heart.

745

Date posted: 3y

@milkyshake I don’t know why it’s making me feel like I’m not more anxious about real events... it’s making me think I’m in denial because of it... 😞😞😞

milkyshake

Date posted: 3y

@POCD/RealEventOCD As I can see it, your anxious of the fact that your not anxious because of your real events. You know sometimes, us human tend to make a big deal a simple scenario in our heads. The problem is our reaction to it. If you cannot solve or fix it then let go ❤

milkyshake

Date posted: 3y

@POCD/RealEventOCD When dealing with real event, you have to understand that we are young and naive before. Our brain is different now than before. WE GREW UP 😉

745

Date posted: 3y

@milkyshake I was I think 16 or 17 when this event happened... I’m 20 now... I don’t ever wanna be a P at all...

milkyshake

Date posted: 3y

@POCD/RealEventOCD I don't care what you were before. You are a teenager, youre curiousity about things is at its finest. I'm not even surprised that you did stupid things before, we all are. Believe me youre not the only one who did horrible things in the past. As long as you repent for it and learned from your mistakes, youre good. Youre still a good person! ❤

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Date posted: 3y

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milkyshake

Date posted: 3y

Hey I'm looking forward that I will be saying "Im so happy for you too" in the future! YOU CAN DO THIS!!! We are not perfect, let go of the rumination and compulsions! It will never answer the questions in your head. I've been there doing complusions 100x everyday. TRUST ME just let go and live with uncertainty. Plus who cares if you did that things or not. What matters is you are sure that you are not going to do that things now. THE PRESENT MOMENT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT.

milkyshake

Date posted: 3y

@anonymous45 Try to accept the uncertainty just for 1 minute. If you feel a relief just for a bit. It means I'm right 😉 Good luck on your theraphy tho! ❤

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