Oh guys, the worst has happened and I simply cannot wrap my head around it. My bf has depression and has been pushing me away for a few weeks (even months) and he finally broke down. He broke up with me and says he needs to focus on himself in order to get better. He says he still loves me but he is not in love with himself, life or anything anymore and can’t give himself to the relationship. I feel like I’m dying. Slowly and painfully.

Stay strong and hang on

Hey friend, hang in there. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Break ups are so rough. What helped me most was focusing on friends and my interests and really diving into what I want to pursue in this life as an individual. Maybe he’ll come around, maybe he won’t (exposure!) but you are strong and you will overcome. Be gracious with yourself too. You’re hurting and it’s okay to hurt. There’s not a magic time frame for healing. Feel better 💛

He'll be back

Hi, first of all I wanted to say im sorry and I hope you feel better. i understand how you feel, because in my situation, i was your bf. When I was having mental breakdowns everytime I saw my bf at that time, I knew that I had to seperate myself from him even if I still love him very much. I had to clean everything he touched because I was feeling anxious and could not go to normal without cleaning. The day I had a panic attack and the worst of anxiety of all those I had, I decided to breakup. My mental health was going down and I had to take care of myself. And now, with OCD practically non existent, I would go back together with him even though I am scared that I will still have anxiety and panic attacks everytime I see him. We broke up 6 months ago and everytime I think of him, and reminding me that i wasnt a mistake breaking up but I still love him and kill myself everyday because I left an amazing guy. I hope you feel better and your bf too. I think, when he feels better, he will get back to you.

This exact same thing is happening to me right now. I don't know how things will shake out for either of us, but we don't really have control over that. We'll be okay though.