So I was talking with my gf on call and she told her friend about me. We talked on call. It felt so good that she introduced me to her friend, but after 2 minutes, a thought popped up in my mind " what if I break up with her right now in front of her friend and spoil her mood". Is there some issue with me? I dont know if I have rocd or relationship anxiety or anything but I wanna love her forever, I dont wanna feel this way. Please comment below and help me 😔

hey you guys i’m new to the app, i just wanted to come on here and share part of what i’ve been struggling with recently- around the beginning of 2024 i started having intrusive thoughts and they completely took over my life to the point where i began planning my suicide once i had finished out some of my commitments for that year. during that time i met this girl and we began texting and keeping in touch with each other every single day since last february. (tw suicide) unfortunately i did have to spend some time in a hospital after i attempted suicide in may of 2024 and i never really knew if this girl was into me or if she even liked girls but we kept talking up until the end of october where we finally said we liked each other. immediately i could tell smth was wrong bc i was shaking and crying and completely scared because i wanted to be very clear that i couldn’t commit to a relationship and then i disclosed to her i was in the hospital in may and i still hadn’t fully recovered from that (#stillhavent #butiwillsoitsokay😛) and i felt awful that i had responded to such an amazing moment like that andever since then i had been plagued with these constant thoughts about not liking her, being straight (which i still don’t know and fully branched out into SOOCD and i have an incredibly hard time distinguishing what is OCD and what is genuinely true about my sexuality because ive never really felt like this for a girl) and for about 4 months we went out on dates where i felt absolutely horrible because i felt like i wasn’t acting like myself or i was being rude to her or i was more attracted to male passerby’s than her or i accidentally thought something about her that just felt so mean and horrible. i also convinced myself it could never work because i couldn’t picture her face and that continued for the first two months, but then i decided to call things off at the beginning of march because i just couldn’t handle debating if i actually liked her if i was gay if i was a horrible person and if i was wrong for all the things i thought every single day and currently we’re on a break because i tried to call things off and she kind of talked me out of it in a very kind and understanding way. i just hate leaving her in limbo because at the end of the day i just want her to be happy because she is an amazing incredible and sweet person and if i wasted more of her time i’d feel even more awful. kinda long lowk… if u read all this thank u and lmk what u think:)

I started feeling a certain way in each relationship I’ve been in after a certain amount of time and it feels like it’s something to do with relationship OCD or something like relationship anxiety. I’ve never been diagnosed with any type of disorder and so on but it just fills all the boxes that I’ve noticed and I’m worried that my relationship right now is slowly coming to a halt because of it potentially 💔. I have anxiety when I’m about to be talking to my girlfriend at times or when I have to call her and when she’s over and does certain things and it worries me so much and makes me wonder that is it ROCD or am I just not interested as much anymore? The anxiety definitely plays a role in my emotions too which causes me to not show as much too sadly. Can anyone help with this? I can’t see any therapists on here since my insurance (Ambetter) isn’t covered here

I keep having this overwhelming thought of "I need to break up with her," however I really don't want to. It causes me so much anxiety when I try to fight the urge to the point that I'm bed ridden and unable to work. Is this normal for ROCD or am I just fighting my actual feelings?