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I'm right there with you. Don't think your the only one going through this because it's not true.

I can understand where your coming from!

I feel the same as you.. I was in 3 long relationship. And now I’m in relationship with my love of my life. I swear that I want to marry with him. But I just can’t stop think about that I am a lesbian. All my libido is gone. I can’t enjoy During the sex because I can’t stop thinking about it. I have past memories that pops in my head all day, about that that when I was young (9-10 years old) I was looking of pictures of nude girl.. I don’t know why.. I was always looking and searching for guys and didn’t find. When I was more bigger I found porn and looking only for straight an gay vids. Guys was all I ever think about. Ever! Why this is happening to me? Do you think that this is normal at young age looking at those vids and pictures?

I was never want any kiss and any touch with any girl so why this is happening to me?

I watched that when I was very young and stop at some age. I am 24 years right now and all I can think about is the things that I did when I was 9-10. This is crazy, I don’t even know what I was think about. All I know is that I was crazy for guys, always looking for there attention, want to kiss and be around them. I was so boy crazy that this situation is so not me. What can I do to stop thinking about those horrible thoughts??? I love my boyfriend but I just feels that I am a liar

Wow I can relate to this big time. Everything you said is exactly how I feel and the thoughts I get. It’s been putting me in the worse mood lately and I feel terrible. What have you been doing to cope? I’m trying to start meditating