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Masturbation is also a response to stress, I’ve done it when I’m done panicking or if I feel horrible, I think it’s just a way the body can relax, but I totally get you, I’ve had times when I’ve questioned if I liked my intrusive thoughts, but if you’re worrying about it this much and are terrified of them, you definitely don’t
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Yeah very true
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I just don’t understand why it’s doing everything in its power to remind me of things that I have no control over, like my past. It upsets me so much. I just want to be ok again and I feel like I don’t deserve it
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@Just Breathe ❤️ OCD latches on to the things we value most. I suffer a lot from my past as well, I mean like a lot, it’s painful, and while I am able to forgive myself for almost most of it, it’s the “what ifs” that keep me from moving on. OCD will do everything it can to keep being in control, and it will convince you that you’re this wretched person and that you’re the exception, but it’s all just OCD, we really are all human. We all make mistakes, do bad things, do weird things, mess up, and regret, but we live and learn. I’ve been doing exposure by talking to young cousins or nieces and nephews, and just taking care of them has shown me that OCD really is just an irrational disorder, you’re not what you’re brain is convincing you if
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@OCDHaver Thank you I appreciate it. I’ve been going crazy lately. Not sure if you remember me or what we have talked about but that’s what’s been bothering me and other stuff as well and it’s been torture. I can’t seem to get better at all but I’m trying
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@Just Breathe ❤️ I still remember, and trust me, I have some guilt over watching weird videos in the past when I was in high school, but I get you. I’m tortured everyday as well, but know that you do deserve to be happy and to recover, I know it seems incredibly real and you feel like you deserve punishment, but you don’t, just remember it’s your ocd
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@OCDHaver Thank you I appreciate it. Maybe one day I will be ok again
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Hi everyone, I'm struggling with what I think are intrusive thoughts, possibly related to OCD, and I'm hoping someone here might relate. When I was younger, in my early teens, I went through a period where I had a strong interest in pornography. During that time, I encountered hentai involving male characters, related to an anime I enjoyed. One of the characters was someone I even looked up to. I feel incredibly uncomfortable admitting this, but I believe I engaged in sexual activity related to it. Years later, I'm plagued by intrusive thoughts about this. I feel intense self-disgust and shame. It's like this memory has "tainted" my ability to enjoy that anime, and sometimes other things. I'm constantly replaying the situation in my mind, questioning my past actions, and worrying about what it means about me. The anxiety is significantly impacting my life. Does anyone else experience intrusive thoughts focused on past events, particularly those that cause feelings of shame or disgust? How do you cope with the constant replaying and questioning? I'm looking for support and understanding. Thank you for listening.
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I think these are the worst real events ive ever done... and Im so triggered because the last thing I want is to be a a P or a MAP... im triggered because I dont want the people ive become friends with on NOCD to block me because they think im a P or a MAP... thats the last thing I want... When I was 18, i unknowingly consumed l*licon a couple times... I didnt know what the term was at the time... I thought that since it was on a public site, and it had millions of views, that i thought it was safe to consume... when I did my research when I was 19 onto what exactly the term was... I was horrified and mortified... I puked and gagged and felt numb for days... it's been 5 years since then... im 23... and the last thing I want is to ever be exposed to this kind of content ever again... let alone consume it... I should've been more knowledgeable and it's my fault... my pocd and real events ocd call me a P and a MAP when these are the LAST things i want to be... I know what I did was wrong and I regret it immensely till this day... and im so overwhelmed...
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I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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