how can i convince myself that the thoughts arent real? when i first had the thought pop up that i was gay and not straight, i freaked the FUCK out. i still do, but its just not as terrible as it used to be. if im scared of being gay does that mean im in denial or i just dont want to be gay because thats not me? im not homophobic whatsoever but i just cant picture myself liking or being with girls. i used to watch lesbian pxrn as well forever ago and never had this issue but now its randomly came up. ive always knew i was straight and never had attraction towards women but now its just all gone to shit