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I am so sorry you are going through this... :(
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What does this indicate. Do you think we can be together forever? Please I wanna be with her onlyyyš
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me and my girlfriend since we started dating we be only had one problem, and that is my fear of everything of losing her of her cheating, and itās all caused by OCD. my texts are massive and i get worried i know i love her and she makes me calm i know i love her. we had a conversation yesterday and basically she said that she feels suffocated with my texts and my fears. she went on trip were she doesnāt have her phone. and yesterday i spent the entire day crying about her. my head is filled with intrusive thoughts. and last night i got so stressed that it seemed like the love went away or i couldnāt remember the love, but itās impossible because i was crying about her yesterday. this struggle my relationship is having is making me so stressed. pls give me advice
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- 19w
hi! I broke a short period of doing well without compulsions because I got triggered again. Before this, I had about two calmer days where I didnāt spiral so much, but now everything feels worse. Iām scared that I donāt love my boyfriend as much as I used to, or that this relationship is making me feel stuck or sad. Heās a wonderful person, and I hate thinking this way. I smelled a perfume that used to make me feel calm and in love, and now it just makes me question everything. I spent hours last night searching Reddit, especially on r/ROCD, trying to see if someone is like me or if anyone has answers. I keep rereading posts, hoping Iāll feel certain about what I should do. But I just feel more confused. I keep thinking, āWhat if I heal and then realize I donāt love him?ā or āWhat if Iām only staying because I feel safe with him or Iām used to him?ā I feel numb sometimes, or like Iām pretending, and I hate it. I want to feel love and clarity again. I donāt know whatās real or whatās ROCD anymore. I just feel lost and afraid. I talk to hi. now and i feel so strange like i dont want to force myself i want to like him i dont understand what i feel i feel so weird in my chest
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- 12w
Hi. Iām writing this because I honestly donāt know what to do anymore. Iāve been suffering in silence for so long, and I feel like Iām losing myself more and more every day. Iām 18 years old, and Iāve been in a relationship for 2 years with someone who truly loves me( i have these thoughts and bad feelings since month 4 in the relationship) Heās kind, patient, and he really cares. But for a long time now⦠Iāve been stuck in this horrible cycle of fear, doubt, and emotional numbness. It started slowly ā little intrusive thoughts like: ⢠āDo I really love him?ā ⢠āWhat if Iām lying to him?ā ⢠āWhat if I never truly loved him, and Iām just realizing it now?ā ⢠āWhat if Iām wasting my youth in the wrong relationship?ā And now? These thoughts feel louder than anything else. I donāt feel love anymore ā not clearly. Sometimes I even feel repulsed or irritated. I hate admitting that, because I feel like a horrible person. He hasnāt done anything wrong ā in fact, he just wants me to be happy and close again. But I feel like Iāve lost all my feelings, my sexual desire, my clarity, and my connection. It feels like my chest is heavy all the time. Every day I obsess: āAm I in denial?ā āIs this ROCD, or is it just the truth?ā āShould I break up? Should I stay?ā āAm I wasting both our lives by not ending it?ā āWhy canāt I feel anything? Why canāt I be normal again?ā I feel so guilty because Iām not treating him with love anymore. Sometimes Iām rude, cold, distant ā and it kills me, because thatās not the kind of partner I want to be. Iām scared Iām ruining him and myself. What makes it worse is that I remember how things used to be ā how safe I felt, how excited I was, how much I wanted him. But now, those memories feel so distant, like they happened to someone else. I feel disconnected from who I used to be, from him, and from myself. I keep thinking, āYouāre only 18, you should be enjoying life, not crying every day over this.ā I feel like Iām wasting my youth, my joy, my energy ā but at the same time, I canāt leave. Because a part of me still wants to be with him. A part of me wants to want him again. But right now, I just feel broken and terrified and unsure of who I even am anymore. Iāve tried to talk to people close to me, but most donāt understand. Some get angry or say Iām overthinking. Others say āmaybe itās just not meant to be.ā But it doesnāt feel that simple. Because if I didnāt care⦠I wouldnāt be this afraid. If I didnāt love him at all⦠I wouldnāt be this devastated by the idea of losing him. But what do you do when you want to love, and you canāt feel it? When your brain is screaming āTHIS ISNāT RIGHT!ā and your heart is too quiet to answer? Please⦠if anyone has been through this ā if anyone has healed or has advice ā I need to hear it. I want to be a kind partner again. I want to feel safe and clear again. I want to stop this spiral thatās been eating me alive. What helped you? What did you do when it felt so real and so final? How did you get through the days when all you felt was guilt and doubt and dread? Thank you for reading this. Even writing it helps me breathe a little. Please, if youāve felt this way before⦠tell me how you kept going. š
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