- Username
- Ocd_hater
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I totally agree with Stacy! Accepting the uncertainty is key. Every time the thoughts come up just tell your brain “maybe, maybe not”. Start out small; do it once a day then tomorrow twice a day, then 3 times a day, etc. This will build up your tolerance for uncertainty. Sadly we will never be able to figure out past memories we are unsure of. The only thing we can do is accept the uncertainty and keep moving in life. Be kind to yourself! You got this!
Do I deserve such thing. Even tho I was a child? I feel like a criminal
@Realsupercell123 Yes, you were only a child. Plus everyone makes mistakes. It’s not about beating ourselves up over mistakes, it’s about learning from them! What would you say to a friend in a similar situation? Would you say they don’t deserve to be happy and that they are a criminal? Of course not.
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Actually if u say it that way I wouldnt say it to mine friends like that. I will try mine best not to be so harsh on myself.
@Realsupercell123 You got this!
OCD likes to latch on to past events and make you doubt what happened and who was responsible. This is a very common way in which OCD will cause distress. Know that you are not alone. The key is to remember that memories of past events are often not accurate. They cannot be trusted. You need to accept uncertainty in terms of what may or may not have happened. It is not uncommon for children to explore sexually when they are young especially if they are exposed to pornography or other sexual behaviors. The reality is that you were a child. Please show yourself compassion and allow the feelings of anxiety to be there and recognize that it doesn't say anything about who you are today.
I feel like a criminal and I don't deserve to Be happy. I am struggling every single day.
I need to vent this out Mine First obsession was whether I got her consent but now it is slowing switching to whether I really was a child. I think I am starting to doubt everything about the event . I know it's sounds stupid but That what I really feels.
The thing is your OCD is going to keep morphing and keep changing memories up on you. It’s going to bring up new worries. The only way to stop this is not to give it any attention and to move on the best you can.
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. So basically don't care about it or ignore it? It is very hard to ignore when It is telling me that I am a bad person. But If I ignore that I feel like I am accepting that I am a bad person.
@Realsupercell123 Yes that’s the only way to defeat it. Okay let OCD make you feel like a bad person. What does it matter what OCD says? Who cares? Just because you think something doesn’t make it true
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Oh I see Than I will try mine best not to think abt it and confess to anyone about it
@Realsupercell123 You got this! And if you mess up, pick yourself up and try again!
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Oh and great news I talk to the girl and she doesn't remember it at all and she doesn't think it was as bad as I thought. Maybe nothing really happen at all.
@Realsupercell123 Sounds good! Now you have to move on. No more thinking about it
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Thanks I will try mine best 😁
@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Ummmm Greg I am starting to feel like a pedophile this is way more worse
Anyone else struggle with real event type OCD (OCD latches on to a real life situation you’ve experienced)? How can we know the difference between what actually happened and if it’s just my OCD making me feel like a horrible person? Specifically with harm/pedophile OCD. Anyone ever experienced this before?
Please reply. I am embarrassed to share this. I dont watch porn AT ALL anymore and never will again but I keep getting intrusive images of porn scenes I saw on pornsites from a long time ago. Especially weird things, like I remember I once stumbled across porn that had a old man in it. Porn has lots of weird categories. I keep feeling bad and guilty for ever watching porn in the first place but I'm trying to remember a lot of people have watched porn/do watch it without feeling the shame I feel now, over a year after stopping watching it. My OCD is fixating on this to the point where it's making me want to throw up. I have real event/moral ocd and my ocd really tries to make me feel bad about these memories from a long time ago.
Every time I watch an explicit video, I obsessively worry about whether or not the person in the video was of legal age or if I unintentionally looked at a minor. This causes me to have intrusive OCD thoughts that I am some kind of horrible pedophile or that the FBI will arrest me. I'm currently experiencing an anxiety spike right now because of it. Can anyone else relate to this? I only want to watch videos of consenting adults, but the need for 100 percent certainty makes it difficult for me to stop questioning it. Because of my religious beliefs, things like pornography are outside of my ethical values anyways, so I really want to break the habit of watching it in any capacity (even if I knew for certain I couldn't accidentally stumble upon a video of a minor), but I struggle with doing that. Does anyone have any tips to stop engaging in lustful behaviors, and how to deal with catastrophic thinking about jail time and being a sick person because I'm paranoid about if the model could be underage?
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