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I totally agree with Stacy! Accepting the uncertainty is key. Every time the thoughts come up just tell your brain “maybe, maybe not”. Start out small; do it once a day then tomorrow twice a day, then 3 times a day, etc. This will build up your tolerance for uncertainty. Sadly we will never be able to figure out past memories we are unsure of. The only thing we can do is accept the uncertainty and keep moving in life. Be kind to yourself! You got this!
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Do I deserve such thing. Even tho I was a child? I feel like a criminal
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@Realsupercell123 Yes, you were only a child. Plus everyone makes mistakes. It’s not about beating ourselves up over mistakes, it’s about learning from them! What would you say to a friend in a similar situation? Would you say they don’t deserve to be happy and that they are a criminal? Of course not.
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@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Actually if u say it that way I wouldnt say it to mine friends like that. I will try mine best not to be so harsh on myself.
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@Realsupercell123 You got this!
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OCD likes to latch on to past events and make you doubt what happened and who was responsible. This is a very common way in which OCD will cause distress. Know that you are not alone. The key is to remember that memories of past events are often not accurate. They cannot be trusted. You need to accept uncertainty in terms of what may or may not have happened. It is not uncommon for children to explore sexually when they are young especially if they are exposed to pornography or other sexual behaviors. The reality is that you were a child. Please show yourself compassion and allow the feelings of anxiety to be there and recognize that it doesn't say anything about who you are today.
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I feel like a criminal and I don't deserve to Be happy. I am struggling every single day.
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I need to vent this out Mine First obsession was whether I got her consent but now it is slowing switching to whether I really was a child. I think I am starting to doubt everything about the event . I know it's sounds stupid but That what I really feels.
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The thing is your OCD is going to keep morphing and keep changing memories up on you. It’s going to bring up new worries. The only way to stop this is not to give it any attention and to move on the best you can.
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@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. So basically don't care about it or ignore it? It is very hard to ignore when It is telling me that I am a bad person. But If I ignore that I feel like I am accepting that I am a bad person.
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@Realsupercell123 Yes that’s the only way to defeat it. Okay let OCD make you feel like a bad person. What does it matter what OCD says? Who cares? Just because you think something doesn’t make it true
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@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Oh I see Than I will try mine best not to think abt it and confess to anyone about it
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@Realsupercell123 You got this! And if you mess up, pick yourself up and try again!
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@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Oh and great news I talk to the girl and she doesn't remember it at all and she doesn't think it was as bad as I thought. Maybe nothing really happen at all.
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@Realsupercell123 Sounds good! Now you have to move on. No more thinking about it
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@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Thanks I will try mine best 😁
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@NOCD Advocate - Greg J. Ummmm Greg I am starting to feel like a pedophile this is way more worse
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- 21w
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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- 18w
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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- 17w
(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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