7710 ❤️
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JordnJordn
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If you didn’t want your partner, you wouldn’t be anxious! Its a very thin line and it’s difficult to realize when you’re in the thick of it, but if you didn’t want him it would come from a solid place of knowing. Knowing isn’t fear based. You can’t make any real decisions from a place of fear. Hang in there, I’ve been there 100% and I’m struggling with a different version of this theme but I can tell you that when I look back to when I was dealing with your version, I realize that it was ocd talking 99% of the time.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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What are u going thru?…
JordnJordn
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@7710 ❤️ I’m terrified my partner is cheating or that I’m in an unhealthy relationship. It used to flip flop between this theme and what you’re experiencing (what if I don’t love him, what if he’s not attractive, etc.) and as soon as we moved in together (about 9 months ago) I no longer question him at all. Instead I’m absolutely enamored by him and feel so in love, but scared he’ll abandon me. OCD tries to find anything and everything to get you out of your relationship, and once you’ve “conquered” one theme, it moves on to the next.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@Jordn …..it’s like I know I don’t love him…. I’ve told myself so many times that I didn’t love him to test myself that I feel it’s true and that I wanna break up… all that to get a reaction… I know love is a choice…. But it doesn’t feel that way… I’m worried I am with him bc or the wrong reasons…
JordnJordn
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@7710 ❤️ It sounds like you’re checking your feelings, which is another compulsion. Are you seeing a therapist?
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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This can’t be real right!? This has to be a nightmare!!
Natalie D.Natalie D.
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how can you know that for sure? you may not. but, I have relationship OCD, and I have had those exact thoughts. ocd is a bully, trying to go against your morals and values constantly. when you are battling OCD, everything feels so daunting, so mine has definitely tried to convince me “i can’t do this anymore”, to taunt me to just get away from the pain. i would say sit with it and focus on the things in your relationship that you are grateful for! i bet you that you will soon be able to reflect that your thoughts were just the monster. they are meant to scare you! you can do this and if you’re relationship is healthy and loving, stick with it in my opinion
Natalie D.Natalie D.
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aw❤️🩹
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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Can’t cry… 😞
Natalie D.Natalie D.
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aw do your best to know that these thoughts will pass. I don’t know your relationship but this sounds like you are just really triggered, tired, and struggling. I’ve been there! still there❤️🩹
Natalie D.Natalie D.
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if your partner loves and accepts you just as you are in this moment, that is what is priceless to me, if you cherish that, keep going!
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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He does. My partner understands my problems… before this I was happy.. I was triggered so badly I was never the same again.. We are both laying down and I put his hand on my face crying softly without him noticing… i want be with him like before. I never felt this before. I haven’t done anything romantic in months. I avoided him so much I don’t feel right touching him… my partner has his own mental health issues that merge into my own..
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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So I’m not in a good pkace
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