Right now I feel like God is disappointed in me because of one of my tattoos that has pagan history even though I did not know it had that history and I do not align with paganism and im afraid that im going to be punished because of it, even though im making efforts to getting it removed.

He is not mad at you. Someone who has no relationship with God would not care if the tattoo made him upset or not. The fact that you care, shows that your heart is in the right place. Plenty of people do things unknowingly that are sin. But thankfully we have a God who sent his son to die for all our sins.

I agree with a previous poster that said the tattoo isn’t really the issue here. I’m assuming because you have ocd (and I experience the same exact themes) that if it wasn’t the tattoo making you question your stance with God, it would be something else. I don’t know if you listen to Mark DeJesus’s podcast/YouTube videos on religious ocd, but if you haven’t yet, I HIGLHLY suggest giving them a try. They have helped me make HUGE strides. He always says, “the problem is not the problem.” What he’s getting at is to our inability to connect with the Father’s love. Another thing that’s helped me is a quote from Alistair Begg, - “if I don’t preach the gospel to myself all day and everyday then I will find myself beginning to trust myself and my experience which is part of my fallenness as a human. If I take my eyes of the cross, it will either lead to absolute despair or a horrible kind of arrogance. But because the sinless savior died, my sinful soul is counted free.”

I don’t think God is disappointed in you. You didn’t know the history and even if you did, if you chose it for another reason I don’t know that it would be an issue. I’ve heard the Christmas tree has pagan roots. But it means something different to us today

Several Christmas traditions have pagan history but they were repurposed to celebrate the birth of Jesus. What does that tattoo mean to you?

I guess I should have prefaced this in my original post, but please don’t leave comments that are disrespectful and unhelpful. I mainly just posted this so other people with similar issues could relate. Not so people could be disrespectful towards my beliefs and others. Thank you to those who have been leaving kind messages.

God knows your heart, He’s not dissapointed in you. You got the tattoo because you liked the art and thought it looked pretty

Every word that I say or every action that I do... I think I will go to he'll because of that!😭