There's a holiday coming up and it makes my rocd go nuts ;'( 

Scared To Go On Holidays Because Of ROCD

Relationship OCD

I’m exactly the same. Holidays a massive trigger. Pressure on SHOULD be happy, interested and into the relationship, coupled with fear of messing it up for GF and not being able to escape. I feel you. 

I just want to cry over and over again. Yes to "should be's" :\ The second point you made, I'm on the opposite side..I'm cripped in fear my partner won't do anything for me/forget about/would intentionally pretend like the day didnt matter and obsessing if that would mean he's not "right" for me. Thanks for showing me the other side to it..gender stereotypes fuking suck and I wish I could delete the entire holiday. 