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i don't think it's good to make big decisions in such troubled times as we have been facing rocd, i also went through a time where i thought my rocd was gone or that i never had it, but actually i was just so mentally exhausted i couldn't feel absolutely nothing and everything seemed very real to me, but it was the little moments, and they still are, that keep me fighting for my relationship, the little moments where I can feel that true love for my boyfriend, and it's worth remembering that if you didn't really love him you wouldn't be fighting so much with yourself to be with him, if you're in a healthy relationship worth fighting for, then i think it's better to wait for things to calm down to be sure of something or take a big decision
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Please I know I love him but it came out when I was happy. But most of the time I’m stuck believing I really don’t love him… how real did it get for you!? Do I just not wanna face the fact that my relationship with him is over!? 😞 I don’t wanna give in but it difficult. I still have things I wanna get him for his upcoming birthday I already have ideas in mind.. why would I get anything for him it I didn’t love him!? I don’t know what to do…
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@7710 ❤️ When I was going through this it felt extremely real most of the time, and I kept making gifts and surprises for our anniversary, and I thought exactly the same way, why would I want to make him something as a gift if I didn't really love him? Sometimes it still seems very real to me, but I remember that even though it seemed like a real thing, there were still moments when I felt true love even if it was for a short time, and these are the moments that give me hope, I know it feels very real and it's a hard, i still have problems dealing with it but that's basically how i deal, deep down you know you love him even if at the moment it looks like you don't, and that's what matters in the end, this and all your effort to make the relationship work
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I have felt the same :( and I feel even worse that I don't react to it but I desperately want to because I don't like how I feel
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Can you both please.. read my. Last post…
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I have to call a therapist I have too… right now.. I truly believe I don’t love him anymore… I cried in my car when I dropped him off at work… he was talking about due to his own mental state he feels like he is holding me back and thinking I’ll have an easier life without him bc he doesn’t drive…
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- 17w
I feel like my Rocd has become more sophisticated. It’s made me feel as if my healthy loving boyfriend is this terrible person. Or I’ll be thinking to myself like “I love him”, and in middle thought I get “no you don’t”. It’s convinced me that our values and beliefs are just TOO different (we’ve only disagreed on one thing in our relationship, but we talk it out). It’s like my ocd is clinging on to every reason why I should break up, like I don’t want this anymore, even tho I do! It’s frustrating. And the idea of doing erp terrifies me. Because I’m afraid if I do erp statements, that I’ll agree with them. Can someone give insight
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I feel like I want to break up with my partner and go off and experience things like falling in love and butterflies and magic again. My partner is my home and my family and my rock and we’re compatible but sometimes it feels like I have these unfulfilled needs. And then ocd comes in and SCREAMS about these things and pulls me away from my partner. We’ve been together ten years. It says leave leave leave leave leave. And I feel like deep down I don’t want to stay. But I know love is a choice. How can I choose to stay when my body is screaming rub. I know I have ocd, and this is what ocd feels like, and I also have a lot of trauma regards to attachment. Am I being a coward??? Will this ever end?
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- 11w
Lately, I’ve been feeling extremely confused and guilty. My boyfriend has been really busy with exams, and we haven’t talked much this past week. I don’t really feel like I miss him, and that scares me. It makes me think maybe I don’t love him anymore, maybe I’ve changed, and maybe this relationship doesn’t feel right for me anymore. A few days ago, a friend invited me to go to a club with her and another girl. I know that if I went without my boyfriend, he would feel bad — not because he’s controlling, but because in our relationship, we’ve always had mutual boundaries and respect. I decided not to go, but ever since, I’ve been spiraling. My thoughts keep going: “What if I didn’t go just because of him?”, “What if I actually wanted to go, but I stopped myself because I don’t really love him?”, “What if I’m holding myself back and this relationship is limiting me?” All of this makes me think I’m bored, that I don’t like him anymore, or that I’m staying out of habit. It’s hard to tell what I really want or whether these thoughts are part of ROCD or some deeper truth. I keep wondering if I’m just attached to him because he’s my first boyfriend and we’ve been together for so long. Sometimes I even think I wouldn’t care if we broke up, and that I don’t feel anything for him anymore — and that absolutely destroys me, because he’s such a good person who truly loves me. He doesn’t deserve to be treated with so much doubt and coldness. I feel miserable. I don’t know what’s real and what’s just obsession. It hurts that I can’t feel any clarity or peace. I just want to know if this is ROCD or if I’m in denial and refusing to accept the truth
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