I have felt the same :( and I feel even worse that I don't react to it but I desperately want to because I don't like how I feel
i don't think it's good to make big decisions in such troubled times as we have been facing rocd, i also went through a time where i thought my rocd was gone or that i never had it, but actually i was just so mentally exhausted i couldn't feel absolutely nothing and everything seemed very real to me, but it was the little moments, and they still are, that keep me fighting for my relationship, the little moments where I can feel that true love for my boyfriend, and it's worth remembering that if you didn't really love him you wouldn't be fighting so much with yourself to be with him, if you're in a healthy relationship worth fighting for, then i think it's better to wait for things to calm down to be sure of something or take a big decision
Please I know I love him but it came out when I was happy. But most of the time I’m stuck believing I really don’t love him… how real did it get for you!? Do I just not wanna face the fact that my relationship with him is over!? 😞 I don’t wanna give in but it difficult. I still have things I wanna get him for his upcoming birthday I already have ideas in mind.. why would I get anything for him it I didn’t love him!? I don’t know what to do…
@7710 ❤️ When I was going through this it felt extremely real most of the time, and I kept making gifts and surprises for our anniversary, and I thought exactly the same way, why would I want to make him something as a gift if I didn't really love him? Sometimes it still seems very real to me, but I remember that even though it seemed like a real thing, there were still moments when I felt true love even if it was for a short time, and these are the moments that give me hope, I know it feels very real and it's a hard, i still have problems dealing with it but that's basically how i deal, deep down you know you love him even if at the moment it looks like you don't, and that's what matters in the end, this and all your effort to make the relationship work
Can you both please.. read my. Last post…
I have to call a therapist I have too… right now.. I truly believe I don’t love him anymore… I cried in my car when I dropped him off at work… he was talking about due to his own mental state he feels like he is holding me back and thinking I’ll have an easier life without him bc he doesn’t drive…