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I definitely support finding age appropriate ways to conduct sex education, starting with conversations around basic consent and body autonomy with small children and as a child ages that we start discussions around healthy and safe relationship dynamics including the physical and emotional components. There are a few educators doing work around this already so I’m hoping for a societal shift.
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Stuff like this should already be strongly regulated to fit the norm for societies and schools. It's heartbreaking to hear that many children are exposed to hardcore violent sexual imagery that only hurts them in the long run by adulthood.
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You're not the only one. I think I started getting intrusive images since I was like 10 years old or so, I had a tablet and I started searching things out of curiosity like "naked people"
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I'm really sorry to hear that. We get curious about these things and we want to know more about the way we work as people. It's just so unfortunate that there's a lot of bad sources that will hurt them in the long run. Has it gotten better for you?
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@BigGip09 I don't really know if it was only out of curiosity, because I continued to search for more so maybe I enjoyed watching them, but I just know that the intrusive images that appeared later in my life, probably consequences to this early exposure to p*rnography, were something that I absolutly didn't want to have, nor enjoyed them. For the latter question, I don't reallyknow. OCD has its ups and downs, but its downs are always very low. However talking about these things here has been very liberating. Everytime I do it, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. Also sorry if I have deleted this reply a lot of times, it's because I kept noticing grammar mistakes and I felt the need to correct them.
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@Nameless000 Don't worry about it. I think it's a mixture of things. Curiosity, guilt, and arousal all at the same time. At the time you probably felt some ounce of anxiety when you saw things like that, but you also enjoyed them at the same time. You continued to look for those things because they made you feel good. That's how it would work for most people, including me. It hijacks your feel good hormones and dopamine highs and you continue to seek it. I don't blame any child or teenager that's caught under something like that. Something they don't exactly understand whatsoever. We won't really know for sure but it is good to talk about. That I do agree with. For me, searching about the topic alone was enough to make me understand myself a lot more. At the same time though, it gives me a lot of difficulty due to the addiction I've had with p*** when I was only a teenager. It wasn't healthy and it was replacing what I really wanted in my life at the time: A healthy relationship with someone else and my household environment not to be toxic. I used it as an escape and I didn't want to let go of those feelings. Later on, I started to imitate what I saw in p*** with other people that I've conversed with at the time. I regret most of it, but I also don't blame myself like I used to before reading what I did.
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@BigGip09 Wow thanks for the great insight!! I feel sorry for what you went through, I too was born in a toxic household, and I didn't have many friends, so I coped everything with the internet, which isn't the best thing for a kid, considering everything that can go wrong (and went). I'm happy that you realized that you shouldn't be too harsh on yourself over past mistakes, what is important is the you "now" and the fact that you feel regret means that you have changed.
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@Nameless000 I wasn't necessarily born in one, but it escalated between constant arguing between parents and that's not good for a kid. I'm glad I was able to help you with talking about it. Talking about this stuff helps for me because I get better insight over the past and what others are going through. Best feeling is noticing others that feel your pain.
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18+ people with this thread please. I just want some advice from people who have experienced this. Its been almost 2 years since my real event and i can confidently say that i feel a bit better about that and my thoughts. (We still have bad moments but we recover.) but, ever since then and before, i feel nasty and gross whenever i engage or interact with adult content. Like this nasty guilt or feeling like i cant interact with it because then my ocd says “this proves that your thoughts are true and your perverse” and after i always feel empty and disgusting. Besides things like that, i read adult fan fiction sometimes or even write stories for my original characters. And yesterday i shared these stories with a close in person friend of mine. (Were both in college) and they were fine about it we laughed about it but then after i felt guilty-my brain was telling me “you traumatized her she just doesn’t wanna tell you” obliviously this isn’t true but im having a hard time believing it and this morning i woke up with a deep dread that i hurt a friend and im horrible. I can say that they’re more positive about these things then me and i think thats why we got into the conversation and i felt comfortable to share these stories but i just can’t get over it. I have a strong urge to ask for reassurance but i know it wont help. I literally have no one else to talk to about this. Ive spoken to my therapist about this guilt with adult content and we have yet to expand on it especially how it goes hand in hand with my asexuality. My therapist tells me its human to feel things like this and its ok to perform self care like that and again-im a human person its usually normal for 19 year olds to be like this especially for someone my age but i dont feel normal. I feel nasty. Does anyone else feel this way? How did you confront this guilt and how did you feel comfortable again interacting with these feelings and actions again? I dont really have a desire to do s*xual things often (im on the asexual spectrum) but when i do i dont want to feel like this. Especially when my ocd types effect it. Advice is needed and appreciated thank you for your help.
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TW: themes of sexual abuse, exploitation, etc Hello I am feeling a bit distressed today. I realized I have pretty “sex negative” views which I feel like many stem from OCD and trauma. Some of my feelings are good and I would argue most stem from a healthy place but I feel like they impact my life and emotional state on an unhealthy level. For example feel VERY strongly about CSA, rape, sexual exploitation of any kind, unethical sex etc. I have a strong pattern recognization ability and see how so many things people deem as “sex positive” (porn, onlyfans, casual sex etc) have a net negative effect on society (abuse, cheating, stds, etc) I think a good amount of the population agrees with these values so I don’t feel alone in that but I feel like I spend so much time being sad over these things. I used to listen to a lot of sexual music growing up (mainly mainstream pop like Ke$ha and Rihanna) and then in my teens I listened to a lot of rap. I noticed how this made me sexualize myself growing up which makes me very uncomfortable and sad. Another thing which makes me sad is how so much of the population was exposed to pornography at a young age. I recently was at a estate sale and there were old playboy magazines and this man was showing his son who looked to be about 9 the magazines and it made me so uncomfortable because that’s grooming and abuse. I didn’t know what to do so I just said “ew” but I still feel guilty I did not do anything more. I just don’t know how to cope with these feelings. I am also Catholic and the abuse crisis has deeply impacted my ability to practice my faith. Two priests whom were close to my family got exposed for sexually abusing children. This is a big reason I have not been able to go to confession (which leads me to being unable to receive the Eucharist, which is a big deal). I constantly obsess over the fact I won’t be able to tell who is a sexual predator and it brings me great distress. Also, sexual music, sex scenes in movies, sexual jokes etc all make me deeply uncomfortable. Hearing about my friend’s sexual lives also makes me very uncomfortable and sad for them, in a way, if I deem their experiences unethical. I feel very upset when people sexualize themselves. I also hate when I experience sexual feelings myself and often find myself wishing I was asexual even though I wish to get married and be a mother. I feel judged by society for being a “prude” “puritanical” etc which feels incredibly invalidating as a lot of my trauma involves exploitation under the guise of “liberation” I don’t really know where I’m going here I think I just want to know if anyone feels similarly. I don’t find many people with views and feelings similar to myself. A lot of people online who I feel like my views overlap with (other Catholics, radical feminists, etc) have views which stem from a lot of judgement and hate whereas I feel like I just want everyone to be safe and happy. I think a lot of my feelings stem from my trauma but obsessions from OCD? For my other forms of OCD (contamination, harm, etc) I feel like exposure therapy helps but I don’t know how I’d go about exposure therapy with this then without further causing more distress. I feel very nervous opening up with anyone about this theme. If you read to the end thank you so much❤️🩹 I am sorry if this post was triggering at all to anyone else I just didn’t know where to go to open up about this :(
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- 19w
Hey guys I just wanted to talk about something I was feeling I feel so trapped and terrible I have a bad pornography addiction even back then idk what to do I'm 17 years old but basically I looked at some very obscure things on the Internet ranging from hentai or just even more messed up things when I was younger I think maybe early teens I remember randomly just started remembering things I saw now I do not remember if I acted on them or jerked off to them idk what to do I feel so ashamed trapped I feel like I can't enjoy life anymore for what I've done I been introduced to porn when I was young idk what to do I seem alot back then some memories pop certain ones I don't remember if I had pleasured myself to it it feels like I did I have so much shame if I did but idk what to do
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