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I definitely support finding age appropriate ways to conduct sex education, starting with conversations around basic consent and body autonomy with small children and as a child ages that we start discussions around healthy and safe relationship dynamics including the physical and emotional components. There are a few educators doing work around this already so I’m hoping for a societal shift.
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Stuff like this should already be strongly regulated to fit the norm for societies and schools. It's heartbreaking to hear that many children are exposed to hardcore violent sexual imagery that only hurts them in the long run by adulthood.
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You're not the only one. I think I started getting intrusive images since I was like 10 years old or so, I had a tablet and I started searching things out of curiosity like "naked people"
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I'm really sorry to hear that. We get curious about these things and we want to know more about the way we work as people. It's just so unfortunate that there's a lot of bad sources that will hurt them in the long run. Has it gotten better for you?
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@BigGip09 I don't really know if it was only out of curiosity, because I continued to search for more so maybe I enjoyed watching them, but I just know that the intrusive images that appeared later in my life, probably consequences to this early exposure to p*rnography, were something that I absolutly didn't want to have, nor enjoyed them. For the latter question, I don't reallyknow. OCD has its ups and downs, but its downs are always very low. However talking about these things here has been very liberating. Everytime I do it, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. Also sorry if I have deleted this reply a lot of times, it's because I kept noticing grammar mistakes and I felt the need to correct them.
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@Nameless000 Don't worry about it. I think it's a mixture of things. Curiosity, guilt, and arousal all at the same time. At the time you probably felt some ounce of anxiety when you saw things like that, but you also enjoyed them at the same time. You continued to look for those things because they made you feel good. That's how it would work for most people, including me. It hijacks your feel good hormones and dopamine highs and you continue to seek it. I don't blame any child or teenager that's caught under something like that. Something they don't exactly understand whatsoever. We won't really know for sure but it is good to talk about. That I do agree with. For me, searching about the topic alone was enough to make me understand myself a lot more. At the same time though, it gives me a lot of difficulty due to the addiction I've had with p*** when I was only a teenager. It wasn't healthy and it was replacing what I really wanted in my life at the time: A healthy relationship with someone else and my household environment not to be toxic. I used it as an escape and I didn't want to let go of those feelings. Later on, I started to imitate what I saw in p*** with other people that I've conversed with at the time. I regret most of it, but I also don't blame myself like I used to before reading what I did.
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@BigGip09 Wow thanks for the great insight!! I feel sorry for what you went through, I too was born in a toxic household, and I didn't have many friends, so I coped everything with the internet, which isn't the best thing for a kid, considering everything that can go wrong (and went). I'm happy that you realized that you shouldn't be too harsh on yourself over past mistakes, what is important is the you "now" and the fact that you feel regret means that you have changed.
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@Nameless000 I wasn't necessarily born in one, but it escalated between constant arguing between parents and that's not good for a kid. I'm glad I was able to help you with talking about it. Talking about this stuff helps for me because I get better insight over the past and what others are going through. Best feeling is noticing others that feel your pain.
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- 23w
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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- 20w
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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