I'm crying right now and I really need some help, one of my intrusive thoughts has always been "what if you're with him just because he's cute and not because you really love him?", and thinking about that always hurt me a lot, even though I knew it wasn't true, and today my boyfriend cut his hair and the only thing I can think about is if I'm with him just for his looks or not, even if he's still beautiful with his hair the way he is now, I'm I feel like a horrible person, and I can't stop thinking about him, like my mind is trying to make me think he's ugly even though I don't, and it feels very real, and at the same time stupid, I don't know if that's normal or what to do I'm really bad I just want to cry, I'm a terrible person.