Does anyone get thoughts that sound like “I have to do this” or, “I want to do this” I don’t want to do anything and I try to remind myself that these are still just thoughts but these often feel so real.

Yep, I do

Ugh these are terrible. I just hate how they go after the people that I love the most

Yep

For instance, I recently (within the past 6 days after a bad thc trip) have had intrusive thoughts about harming my mom. I have never had these thoughts before and am truly heart broken by these thoughts because of how much I love her and would never want anything bad to happen to her. Sometimes I’ll think “what If my mind tells me I have to hurt my mom” and then I will dismiss that thought by thinking “no! You love your mom” and then I’ll randomly get another thought like “you want to hurt your mom” or “you will hurt her” and that freaks me the hell out because I would NEVER EVER actually want to hurt her. Lately I’ve been scared to even see her because I feel so guilty about these thoughts. I’ve been going into the living room and just hugging her and crying because of how bad these thoughts hurt me.

Yes I get this. Not a voice but just something pops in your head to tell you do something bad or hurtful