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- 3y
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- 3y
OCD doesn't have any limits and it often confuses people to the point where they question their core values. I really do understand what you're talking about, it can be extremely hard and lonely fighting OCD and Depression. But, judging by the way you worded your post, you are ruminating to no end. If you haven't already, you should look for a therapist or atleast get a good OCD book. It can get and it will get better. And that war is pretty unlikely to happen btw.
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- 3y
Thank you for the answer, i still deal with that thought bc that happened a lot of times that when something felt hopeless or bad i got feelings of i dont want to live like this, i want to die... or if something will happen i dont want that to happen, or i will kill myself bc life will be hopeless then. And this thinking scares the shi out of me and puts me to feel disapointed about myself that i thinked that so i reather try to say its ocd... but idk what is it...
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- 3y
And now my mind says that i feel better bc i ask for reassurance or support in everywhere, so that means im desperate=like suicidal people, so that means im that.... like it tries to prove me im in actual danger bc of these thoughts...
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- 3y
@woahman It can be pure torment, a lot of what you're describing is very familiar to me. Almost all of it is a symptom of your brain malfunctioning to a certain degree. It's really hard to explain to you what I want to say but I believe you already know most of it. If you can, buy one of the recommended books on OCD (Brain Lock might be a good one for you) but the thing that'll help you the most, even if you currently may not believe it and it all seems hopeless, is ERP. A painful process but the most effective one. Try finding a good therapist who has experience with OCD and specifically ERP. Your main theme seems to be Suicidal OCD, which is a common theme and can be treated, like all themes, to a fairly high degree.
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- 3y
@ocdalltheway You had the same and it was just ocd? People here tell me i might have real ideation and that puts me into feeling more confused and now i gave up findig out, i had enough...
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- 3y
The thing that i really felt that "life doesnt have that meaning i gave to it" and then the thoughts of i will give and kill myself bc theres to much stress, i cant think of other things, makes me so sad, that i could go to that place right now...thats not good thinking...
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- 17w
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