Crippling loneliness rn.

Hey buddy. Thanks for hitting me up. I told u how my first love came in my life? Well he actually has lots of friends and we hang out alot but if he goes a day without hitting me up it reminds me of how lonely i am

@Coul.C Or spending his day talking to me im just back to being by myself and it feels so painful

@Coul.C When u have no one else to talk to your few only freinds become a lot more meaningful for you and it hurts not to hear from them. Regardless of it it doesn't matter if u have ocd or not it still hurts. I want u to know your not alone tho you got us this community, your family even if it isn't in the right place now it is still there make the most of it because my father had a lung transplant and it scared the shit out of mr being without him and u got me too if it makes a difference. Im not saying to suck it up or that it's all okay it isn't I'm sorry if it seems that way, I just want u to know these moments of solitude are temporary and will go away even if they come back but the support u have will never be gone.

@Ambiguous You are an amazing person I sincerely mean it. The app has brought me to you and other amazing individuals and for that i am truly grateful. This community will have a special place in my heart. I keep waiting for things to get less lonely but i suppose that just isnt how it works. I feel like im putting in effort and no one is reciprocating tho. Still i did burn those bridges down so it is my turn to put in the effort. In the meantime its nice to know that you understand how i feel and support me in my times of need. Thanks Ambiguous, you’re awesome and the people in your life are lucky to have you!

@Coul.C Yout welcome for sure, and first and foremost I needed that I'm not the one who needed to be helped I'm just glad u aoprecated it and I can't help feel grateful for your wholesomeness. I understand ur going thru a lot and have burn down bridges I aslo know your a great person and hopefully both of can overcome whatever is is life throws at is. I hope your able to continue in your recovery porches and enjoy your life.:)

@Coul.C Oh and I'd aslo like to leave this if it helps I'd love to add u here as well sc: jrgarza.jesus I've been working to consider this option and Id like to add me if u want :)

@Ambiguous Ill add u now!

@Coul.C My name is the one with uzumaki! Lol

@Coul.C I just saw it lol I just came back from the shower feeling refresged and I get this welcome surprise , :)

I'm not the best at this I try tho, it is much harder than thinking about it all getting better I know because it isnt about tommorow it is about rn and rn it hurts. I cry myself to sleep at times thinking how no one really cares, I'm wrong of course and i know it is a lie but I can't stop thinking it is true whenever I feel this way but it isn't. It never is I'm not as good as my friends are at this but Ive been there and I felt he dispair of waiting for them to take a moment and talk to you. We got to accept it is okay to feel this way we just can't let it ruin us life hurts at times and yet everyday we get another chance to recover and make things better. I hope all goes well for you Coul! Take care 💛