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- 3y
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- 3y
Yeah, definitely sounds like a compulsion.
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- 3y
I think it's a kind of compulsion or at least avoidance : you try to suppress your thoughts by forcing yourself into thinking something else (did it worked for you ? I never found this technique very effective). It never occurred to me this way, but in actions I try to do the complete opposite of what my intrusive thought is telling me. It's kind of a compulsion too I'm afraid.
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- 3y
It wasn't a very effective technique, it worked only partially, because the intrusive image was a lot stronger than the compulsion so it kinda got overshadowed, I also think that each time I did that the triggers gained more meaning and power, (I don't know if technique is the correct term, because I didn't apply it in a logical sense, it was more like a need, I was obliged to do it because if not I couldn't move on with my normal routines). But I moved on with time by not ingaging with the images, by not giving them power over me. Maybe it was because I was forced by the situation I was in (but idk remember very well). The thing about such obsessions was that these "impure" images would stick with me and get printed in my mind and in my memory (like an immunological memory); it wasn't just a visual thing, but a disgusting feeling in and of itself; I could feel the image's essence in the upper side of my body, as if my soul could "taste" the feeling. I don't think that what I did was doing the opposite thing but rather a mental act to ease myself, I was simply "replacing" (a fitting term) "impure" things with "pure" things, so just an half and temporary solution.
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- 3y
@Nameless000 I forgot to mention one thing, I don't have these compulsions anymore but I still get triggered sometimes, not as intensily as I did in the past, but I never reached the point where I just don't get triggered at all, I never had the courage to do that step.
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- 3y
I'm really sorry for sending these longs replies, but I also had a question: what do you mean by doing the complete opposite of your intrusive thoughts? Do you mean like tricking ocd by trying to be unfazed at what is supposed to trigger you? Or is it a different kind of thing?
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- 3y
@Nameless000 ugh yes it's horrible but when I have an intrusive image I'm just like 🙂 ok then and carry on. It feels SO UNCOMFY but I've even gotten to the point of being able to sing my intrusive thoughts outlook repeatedly LOL never thought I'd do that
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- 3y
@Nameless000 It's more doing the opposite of my compulsions : going to the street my thought tells me to avoid, telling my my friend I have been to the hospital for mental health when my thought tells me do say "everything is fine"
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- 3y
Yep thought replacement is a compulsion . I struggle with the same thing, except not with the same mental images you mentioned haha
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- 3y
Yes, a compulsion. A lot of people do that.
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- 25w
I'm thinking of trying some ERP on my own while I wait for treatment, but I'm having some trouble knowing what is a compulsion and what would be good exposure. For example, I have huge fears of being a narcissist and/or a generally bad person. So whenever I watch a movie or read something that has an evil character in it I automatically compare myself to that character and stress over if I'm like that person. A couple of things I do when this happens is Google other people's experiences, seek reassurance, rumination, etc. Sometimes I'll also google different symptoms of narcissism, freak out over things that I relate to, then get relief over things I don't. So my confusion is, would researching people who have narcissism be an exposure, or a compulsion since it's something I sometimes do during a spiral? Or, would the exposure be watching movies/living life hearing these stories, and refraining from the spiral of rumination and no Googling at all?
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- 24w
I have just recently realized that I had SO OCD. This began whenever I was watching porn and had an intrusive thought about the guy in the porn. It was more minor at first, it was a majority of what I was thinking about throughout the day but it didn’t feel as distressing at first. If I had downtime to think about it, it would affect me but if I was just going about my day I wouldn’t notice it. I began going through the compulsions of checking myself. This lasted for a while until another obsession occurred. Then it seemed as if my SO OCD took a step back. I would have flare ups but they would seem to pass. Recently, I had a very bad night of constant compulsions and looking at pictures and imagining things to check myself. After that night it was very distressing, it affected me to the point where people around me began to notice and ask me if I was okay. One of the big reasons I was so upset was my girlfriend, we have been together for over 3 years and I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I was thinking “Oh my god, if I am gay I can never be with her.” I would sit and cry about it thinking I would lose her and that might life would change because I was gay. I finally had enough and talked to her and my parents. We did some research and I was so shocked to find out that I had a form of OCD, it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders just knowing that other people have been where I am and that I’m not gay. However, I may have naively expected the compulsions and obsessive thoughts to go away now that I knew I had an actual problem. But I found that the compulsions and thoughts were still there and I was going to put some effort into getting better. I have researched and now know what to do when experiencing intrusive thoughts, yet I still have been performing the compulsions which is just feeding into the OCD. I find myself having intrusive thoughts and then start performing compulsions to see if they are true. What really bothers me is when I have an intrusive thought that tells me that I do like something. But when I think about it I have no desire to pursue those thoughts. However when I feed into the compulsions they just seem to feed into each other. It is like my OCD ignores all the things that I know I like and goes straight to panic mode. I am also trying to do ERP and am going to start doing my best to get better. Does anyone have any tips for not performing the compulsions no matter how anxious you are feeling and no matter how real the intrusive thoughts seem to feel?
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- 16w
I already wrote about this and you really helped me, but now I wondered?! During the erp, I look at a picture of that person with some grimaces that the brain sexualizes, otherwise I have incest ocd! The person is of my gender, I'm not gay otherwise. And then, based on those facial expressions, the brain creates sexual images in my head, which I often feel as sexual and mental arousel. It is enough to see the picture or hear the voice of that person! Based on the pictures it gives me the idea of sexually touching myself on it and climaxing while watching. I feel an urge (I tried something like that a few times ago and now I'm afraid of it), and then the exercise is over, but I stay until I get the answer I want and the feelings that would calm me down, but that happens less and less... Have you had any experience, and is it a compulsion? how can I stay after exercise with that feeling of reality.. Thank you in advance❤️
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