Scared of self acceptance - Is anyone else fearful of completing ERP or fully accepting uncertainty/themselves? I notice this comes into place for me with sexual orientation obsessions. I’m hesitant to practice self compassion and self acceptance because I’m afraid things will “become true” about me or I’ll realize my sexuality is different that what I believe it to be/want it to be. I have this voice in my head telling me that I’m really just so deeply suppressing my identity, and that it’ll become true if I practice acceptance, but I don’t think/feel like I am. Basically, I’m afraid practicing ERP/Acceptance will change me. Which as I type this, I realize how ridiculous it sounds. But has anyone else felt this?

I have been really battling with my SO OCD, and I’ve recently started to have a ton of wins!!! I’m really excited about it, but as I’ve noticed myself not engaging as much… different things have popped up. Now im obsessed with people’s perception on me, and them looking at me and thinking by how I walk, how I talk, what I wear, how I move… that I am gay? And am so convinced everyone thinks that and “knows something that I don’t”. Is that typical with OCD? If so, any ERP advice on how to overcome these thoughts?

I've been told a lot that in order to get better, we need to tolerate uncertainty, which yea I get that and I'm trying every day more and more to reach that point!! But I've also been told that we need to tolerate uncertainty AND "our worst fears becoming true". Like how does that work, especially with POCD, OCD about a///ault, SA and all of that? Like that is really difficult for me and I don't really understand how I'm supposed to just shrug stuff like that off

I’m thinking about doing erp but my ocd is so severe the thought of accepting my fears happening to me makes me sick to my stomach. I also believe in the power of my words and saying I accept this Bad thing will attract it into my life. I’m not sure what I should do🥲