Scared of self acceptance -
Is anyone else fearful of completing ERP or fully accepting uncertainty/themselves? I notice this comes into place for me with sexual orientation obsessions. I’m hesitant to practice self compassion and self acceptance because I’m afraid things will “become true” about me or I’ll realize my sexuality is different that what I believe it to be/want it to be. I have this voice in my head telling me that I’m really just so deeply suppressing my identity, and that it’ll become true if I practice acceptance, but I don’t think/feel like I am. Basically, I’m afraid practicing ERP/Acceptance will change me. Which as I type this, I realize how ridiculous it sounds.
But has anyone else felt this?