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- 3y
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- 3y
I have these same obsessions. And I often seek reassurance which is the last thing I should do. My husband will rarely reassure me so I go to other family and friends instead. It’s easier to stay accountable in therapy. This is definitely your OCD. I have been on an SSRI off and on again most of my life and when I’m on them, the health concern OCD gets much better. Hang in there!
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- 3y
This is really helpful to hear. I am sorry you struggle with the same things but it is nice to know I’m not alone and I’m not going insane or this is some weird one of a kind thing. I know it isn’t, but sometimes it feels that way. I have been trying each day over saying to myself “it’s a new day I won’t ask for reassurance!” And some days I fail and that’s ok, I try again the next. I have been on lexapro for almost 10 years and I know it has helped because I think back to how I felt before, but sometimes I wonder if I need to up my dose since it has been some time. I feel like I get really depressed on a higher dose though for some reason? But your mention of therapy is true and I need to find someone in my area that specializes in OCD. I’ve just had talk therapy my whole life and I feel I need to try other things. Anyway, hang in there too friend! Thank you for sharing your experience and thoughts with me.
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- 3y
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- 3y
I think I need to ask my boyfriend not to give me the reassurance because while it sounds awful I know it’s what is best for me and the cycle and I am sorry to hear you’re struggling so badly right now. Just remember how many times you’ve been through this before and made it out okay. (I’m still learning how to navigate all this so I hope that’s ok to say).
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- 25w
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- 18w
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- 12w
i have been dealing with anxiety and ocd like symptoms for the my whole life but they’ve gotten worse the past 2-3 years. im not diagnosed nor on any medications. my boyfriends has been with me nearly every step of the way of this anxiety and is a great help to me. i was raised in a family where anxiety is “just part of life” and everytime i try to talk to my parents about it they shut me down saying things like “i get anxious too” or “you need to work out more”. while i’ve tried to do the things they recommend, eating healthy, working out, staying off my phone, my anxiety is very much still there. i experience obsessions and compulsions frequently but have just learned to deal with them because i had to. they’re also not always constant anymore, i do have days without anxiety. my boyfriend has recently started lexapro and is on 5 milligrams for his own anxiety and he said that he feels so much better even after just two weeks and he thinks it wouldn’t be a bad idea to try to get on it myself. i agreed at first but after talking to my parents they again made me feel like my anxiety wasn’t bad enough or that i was making it up and that i didn’t need medication, i just needed to learn how to manage. yesterday i had another conversation with my boyfriend about this and he said he felt really bad about all the stuff i go through. (this anxiety and also some physical issues which is either EDS or POTS) but to me, and how my parents think of the whole situation, i think im fine “because its just part of life” now im afraid that im shutting out my own emotions bc thats how my parents think i should be. i just don’t know what to do. i know my bf is right and that im not a liar and everything i experience is real but i’ve gotten so good at living with it and its not as often that its debilitating that i don’t think i deserve medication. i don’t even know if its actually ocd because im not diagnosed but i talk to my brother and one of my friends (who are diagnosed) and we go through the same things. idk what to do or how to feel. i know my bf is worried about me but i don’t want to be dramatic or let my anxiety control my life
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