I really convinced myself I don’t love him anymore…. I had a clarity moment a few days ago… we got into a huge argument yesterday I mean the biggest argument we have ever had in our whole 11 1/2 years…. I am having anxiety… no thoughts. Just feelings and feeling very convinced it’s me… I don’t wanna break up with him. Idk what to do…

Yeah. OCD makes us all doubt... Just try and remind yourself of all the good things.... if you can... Cute pic of you two ❤️

Tell him this. Communicate, be vulnerable, don’t give up ❤️‍🩹

I told myself I didn’t love him over and over again for 2 years now… how can I fix the damage that I’ve done.. can therapy even fix it anymore? 😞 I look at him or other people and feel no joy anymore… I constantly think negatively towards everything and everything… I can’t even remember why I love him in the first place bc I was so focused on his flaws for far too long…. I am convinced I’m only with him for the wrong reasons. I am always around people and due to that I never can cry on my own….. I am worried that I just don’t have interest in him anymore even though I know I am still depressed. I just don’t wanna lose my partner. But then I think about how I might be with him for the wrong reasons… I had a clarity moment but… it didn’t last long..

It’s like I really don’t love him anymore…. He said I looked so depressed and sad yesterday… I don’t like that I feel like this…

I don’t wanna give in but the feelings feel so powerful…… I hate it… I really believe I don’t love him… 😞 please I wanna stay and fix any problems or issues my partner and I have or any issues I have… I just don’t wanna let him go… I thought of him not being with me anymore and that made me very sad… 😢

Having this conversation could do wonders. Believe it or not, but I am actually going through something similar but in this case, I am your partner. My boyfriend broke up with me a few weeks ago due to his own depression and not being able to see a future anymore or love himself, let alone love me. He pushed and pushed and now we aren’t together but I know he’s not in the right space to make such detrimental decisions. So although we are apart, I stay, and I support. Because I love him. And I know he loves me, but he can’t see it right now. Having this conversation with your partner could give you the space you need to heal and put all of this into perspective on your own. If you’re in the relationship you can’t give 100% of yourself to your healing because you’re constantly giving half of yourself to your partner. It will get better for you and your relationship, take the time to see if you still love him but mostly to love yourself first. If it works out then that’s ideal! But if not, you know you’re working towards healing on a new path. All of this is easier said than done of course and it is indeed heartbreaking. Speaking from my current experience, it’s not easy. At all. But love is strong, you need to be strong enough to hold it together too and right now your relationship with yourself needs that strength. Be strong friend ❤️

You'll be fine, love comes and goes in waves.

Please my ROCD symptoms are gone! I’m fully convinced I don’t want or even love my partner!!!… I am not doing good! I’ve never felt this for him before!! I had clarity moments a few times this month! He got me an adorable valentines card that I really love and held on to. This can’t be happening happening!? I constantly have theses feelings that I don’t love him! Now I believe it! I have no intrusive as much anymore! I just wanna be with him again like before please! I don’t wanna leave! But the I freaked out I’m with him for the wrong reasons….. I rather deal with the anxiety more than anymore!

If you feel it would make you happy, then stay. If you feel you’d be unhappy, then I’m afraid that might not be a good enough reason to stay. Space might also put your feelings into perspective. Your love might come soaring back, or you might realise that your thoughts were not in fact OCD and were your truth. Love comes in waves for sure and over the time of life, you won’t love your partner each and every day. You must weigh up what feels right. No matter what you do here, it is the right answer. Have you tried therapy? Or considered it? I know it can be expensive depending on where you’re from (it is here too!) but an alternative might help (Better Help for example). I know this comment might seem flippant or unhelpful but that’s not what I’m trying to instil. Your relationship has grown now and changed, either way it will never be like it was before. But you can work at it, each and every day to make it work. Love doesn’t just happen, it’s not that easy and yes it hurts. But if you truly love them, it’s worth all of this. That’s just up to you to decide however. Nobody can make that decision for you. You have the strength to get through all of this. This will pass, and you’ll never have to relive this exact moment ever again. This will not last forever.

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