I noticed sometimes when something is too much and i get overwhelmed, i feel a little bit of hopelessnes and a thought comes that says "i want to die" or "theres no point to live" and i imediately notice this and then i feel bad, why i thought this, and then im affraid that these are true feelings(bc i felt them) and i could've do it or in the future i can get really hopeless and i will do it. And this feeds the fire more and more... Did y'all experienced this as harm ocd or this might be a real feeling and i have to be careful??

This makes me feel a little bit better, makes me feel a little hope that im not actually suicidal or risk of it... that thing really makes me worried that when i feel down these thoughts seems real bc it really says i should do that...i remember 2 years ago i had these like a voice in my head, i thought i vent crazy... and random times i just think about nowhere that whats the point of life and i get worried and my mind instantly goes to "maybe you should die bc theres no point"... its so aggressive

@woahman I feel you, I know how aggressive and convincing those thoughts can get... Especially when one is already struggling with other things as well... But those thoughts/feelings/urges will pass eventually

@rbecks Sorry woahman I think I just commented on one of your other posts, but you both described everything I’ve been going through too. The “what if its not ocd?” The notion that every little inconvenience you go through in a day, such as a stressful day at work or a friend cancels on you, you get upset and your OCD tells you that’s a reason why your thoughts are real. Not feeling enough anxiety after a while to the thought and you get anxiety about that. It’s allll what I’m experiencing now and neither of you are alone either. I’m comforted to know that I’m not the only one who has gone through this. Keep fighting.

I got to a point where now i dont even want to be with people too much bc it makes me feel tired and weird... ocd made me believe about myself that im introverted or not social person...

@woahman Me too, I've been self-isolating ever since my OCD got worse (which was more than four years ago)... But I've realised now, that I have to actively do something about it and at least try to heal myself, even though it's really hard... One little step at a time... And don't forget to rest... Anytime I feel overwhelmed and the intrusive thoughts are becoming less tolerable, I think of all my physical needs. Have I slept enough tonight? Did I drink enough water? Did I eat enough? Do I need to take a shower? Do I need some fresh air? Do I need to lie down for a while? Do I need to dim the lights? Do I need to be alone? Do I need a hug? Etc. I really take the time now to look after myself, to respect my own boundaries and surround myself with uplifting things (e.g. I stop watching the news for a while, when I feel that I am getting overwhelmed again and watch a comedy instead or anything else that makes me happy, like cute animal videos), because anytime I forget about or ignore my needs, the intrusive thoughts get much more worse...

@rbecks Now i feel like it gets worse by worse bc i see how people with suicidal/harm ocd talks and how i am and i feel worse bc maybe i need to admit that i had real feelings... and it hurts so much, puts me to feel depressed more...

@rbecks Do your ocd uses those opportunities when life gets hard and u get intrusive thoughts like its better to die, i dont want this, it would be better? I have that and it makes me so sad... idk if these are real ones or ocd doing its thing while im at the bottom...

@woahman That's exactly what's happening to me too