Going crazy. Is it ocd to want to hit someone up when you dont even want to hit them up? Probably not. I just feel the urge to talk to them but I know that i have to respect myself a little here, as they seem uninterested and i cant force things. :(

I think you should let it be for now, regardless if it is ocd it seems torturous to let your life revolve around this anxiety, I know it doesn't feel like much but your a great person and ahold be able to enjoy your life with whoever and however it is :)

Im trying so hard not to. How do i fight the urge?! Thank you for your kind words i keep freaking telling myself this as well but im still stuck trying not to msg him. :(

I know it is hard If it helps just acknowledge it's normal to feel that way okay, you can always talk to them later and things will be all be okay :)