rachhh
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- 3y
arp1014arp1014
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- 3y
I’m three weeks into my diagnosis with ocd and i have these same doubts. That in itself is ocd lol My family always tells me “just accept that you have it and learn how to deal with it better” but I’m always questioning it and asking myself “did i make this up to finally see a therapist or do i actually have it” but my therapist even told me that doubting if you have it or not is definitely what ocd will do to you. Then i remember they don’t call it the “doubting disease” for no reason lmao i hate it here 🤣
Caitlin Caitlin
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- 3y
God this is me I haven’t been diagnosed yet but I’ll like look into ocd and see what lines up with me and then I’ll go at the end oh it’s not that bad and then I’ll go like oh I don’t need to be treated and it’s like lol it’s not as bad rn because your not really feeling it as such your doing a lot of avoidance and even if it’s not too bad rn years ago it was a lot don’t dude swipe it and here I am back at the I have it to oh don’t bother it’s fine lol I’ll also convince myself that if I’m not like in a trigger right in this moment and it’s like lol okay go to the bathroom and then you’ll be like lol I have ocd
arp1014arp1014
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- 3y
@Caitlin YESSS lmao it’s like on my good days, i don’t have it (even though the thoughts are still there, it’s just not as bad) but on my bad days, i NEED to see my therapist asap. I can’t with OCD. I know for a fact that I’ve had it since i was young bc i have obssessed over so many things my entire life. It’s worse to doubt it during treatment bc this could be the light to getting better but doubting it just prolongs the process and it feels shitty thinking you could be better but you yourself aren’t allowing that to happen.
arp1014arp1014
- Date posted
- 3y
@arp1014 *to me it feels worse doubt it during treatment!!!
Caitlin Caitlin
- Date posted
- 3y
@arp1014 No that’s me fr like mine I’m assuming it’s ocd lol used to be bad with contamination ocd years ago when I was like 14 it was bad to me because I was starting to try to do avoidance with a lot of new stuff at the time and then it got better as I’m not as many compulsions because my mum told me about like the sun killing germs right and I knew myself I was like I’m not gonna look up the exact temperature I’m just gonna say this is like something that’ll make the germs go away so whenever I had a fear of it and there was the sun I’d just say it fine and I dunno if it worked as magical thinking cause then I’d be like okay they can’t exist here and I’d genuinely feel like it’s was then a calm spot like seeing it once dirty then making it clean so don’t follow in doing that lol it may not be a good idea but yeah and then it got better the fear left and the compulsions stayed as a habit rather than a need so I have no idea where I have ocd or somehow changed it to not be a big kick up my ass but yeah but I still have contamination over cw seman with the toilet and bathroom but yeah the germ one and that one together was a pain so sometimes I’m like I’m not having such a problem anymore this isn’t necessary for me to investigate with a psychologist back then was but now I dunno I kind of want it to come back lol so then I can be to myself like oh okay it’s bad again therefore I have this now let’s go and it’s like but you had this in the past why trying to prove it
rachhhrachhh
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- 3y
Isn’t it the worst?? Like damn I have some days of slight peace and I’m like wait maybe I don’t have it … 🥴
Caitlin Caitlin
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- 3y
@rachhh Oml yes 😂💕
Sophiebe4rSophiebe4r
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- 3y
I feel the exact same way and I got diagnosed a few months ago. Still to this day, I have these exact thoughts. It all comes down to the fear of being a horrible person. We obsess over whether we actually have ocd because if we don’t, it means we are faking it and are horrible people. But in actual fact, surely we should be happy and not obsessing if we think we don’t have it, because no one wants ocd. The fact we are obsessing over it shows that ocd is playing it’s tricks on us.
MathiasMathias
- Date posted
- 3y
You always doubt it . They can tell you it’s 99.9 % ocd and you’ll still doubt it
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
I learned that people who have Harm ocd or other types like it often have a hard time accepting there diagnosis and don’t think they have it.
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