Anxiety and fear

I had a breakdown not too long ago about taking a new bc pills (that I took years ago first one I ever tried in my teens for pain during my monthly cycle) however I am now scared to death of the possible bad side effects of taking it. I already can't control my OCD and anxiety even just around the things I already have going on. And I am afraid of having worse anxiety or other mental health issues. Mood swings, or possibly getting blood clots. So many unknowns as to how my body will react. The pills were prescribed to help me with pelvic pain for which they think I have pelvic congestion syndrome...but I broke down so afraid and I just absolutely don't want to take them now. I feel so sad and broken and defeated. I feel like a failure for even feeling this way but I can't help it. I have never broken down crying over something like this before...the idea of taking something that could potentially make my anxiety worse or trigger a depressive state (which I've not had one in months) or causing other issues. On top of that the possibility of it causing high blood pressure, and having to monitor that which is only going to make my anxiety and OCD thoughts even worse! 😭😩 Sorry for the long post I just really needed to vent and get this out to anyone who would listen. I definitely am not going to take them, and going to call the Dr tomorrow and see if we can go a different route (without pills) to treat my pain issues. I just have so many things going on mentally and physically rn and I'm so overwhelmed and I just wish it would all stop and I could be better or back to the "normal" that I was before. And my anxiety go back to the "normal" it was 3 months ago before a situation occurred to cause it to be so bad. 😔 Thank you for letting me vent!

emmer

Date posted: 3y

I had the exact same issue, but with antidepressants. I went through a really rough patch about 6 months ago. My doctor prescribed fluoxetine, but the bottle sat on my nightstand for at least two months before I worked up the courage to start taking it. I felt exactly the same way you are describing, reading the potential side effects absolutely terrified me. I read that it could make anxiety worse before it gets better - and I genuinely didn’t think I could handle it if it got any worse. (Not to mention potential physical side effects, etc.) That is, until I hit another really rough patch about two months later and decided that I couldn’t do it on my own without help. Now, I’m happier than ever that I started taking it. I’m on a low dose (mostly for anxiety at the moment - it hasn’t done much for my OCD) but it has made me feel so much better, I’ve had no side effects like all the terrifying ones I spent hours reading about online, and it almost feels like a security blanket - knowing that with them I most likely won’t go into another state like before. I hope if anything finally reading a positive experience instead of all the negativity online might give you a little bit of courage to try starting your pills if it’s something that could really help you! Just know that if it doesn’t end up working right with your body, you always have the option to stop taking them. You’ve got this!☺️

Liz1225

Date posted: 3y

Thank you for saying this. I am still staring at my bottle of Escitalopram to start taking them and this definitely helped

SerenityLove

Date posted: 3y

Thanks for the encouraging words. I'm glad you finally took the step to take the medication for your anxiety! For me the side effects with bc pills are higher risks for high blood pressure, blood clots, I mean it changes your hormones and can make my depression and anxiety far worse, and yes I can stop taking it if it makes me feel really bad. But it's still just a scary thought of what if I got a blood clot and died because I didn't know if it went to my heart or lungs 😱 I know I am going to call my Dr tomorrow and talk about the concerns I have, because the Dr I saw today was a male vs the regular females I see (it's a student Dr hospital) and I just didn't feel like he was very helpful or wanted to listen. And the bc pills they gave me like I said I haven't taken it since I was in my teens and I couldn't say I'd it contributed to my unstable mental status because I was very unstable and depressed and very moody back then 🤷 but I've taken many different bc pills throughout the 16 yrs I was on them from age 14-30 and tho they definitely helped me with the pain...I did have other issues like breakthrough bleeding and such. And again I never thought about how they effected my mental state but I've been way more stable having been off of them the last two years than I have in my entire life ...so sigh ..I dunno lol we shall see what happens! If anything I know there is a procedure I can get done that would help as well. But I definitely will talk with the Dr about my concerns more before I make a decision!!

nae nae

Date posted: 24w

Afraid I won't recover

I'm going through a rough time. I used to think medication would brighten my world, but if anything, it's muted it. The physical anxiety is less, and I felt okay(ish) for a while, but things are getting bad again. I'm so afraid I'll never get to a point where I feel safe in my body and in my mind. Today is the first day I've cried in... I don't know how long. But I didn't feel the relief I thought I would. Initially, I did, but it morphed into dread, and now I'm sitting by myself, trying not to panic. I really want to begin seeing a therapist for OCD, but I don't know how much my insurance covers. There's just so much on my mind right now. A whole bunch of old themes are resurfacing. I wish I could've been given a different path in life. I'm trying to stay strong. It's just really difficult. I feel like I'm being sent back to square one :(

Aprilshowers...

Date posted: 17w

My OCD

Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I don’t even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like it’s controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and it’s like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like I’m stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I can’t even touch things I use to eat without worrying that I’ll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldn’t even enjoy my own child’s birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my baby’s life and I didn’t know what to do. And now, I’m pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, I’d worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think “you’re gonna pass out! You’re gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I don’t even try to, and I hate it.

lizzieisanxious

Date posted: 16w

vent,, feeling a bit hopeless

i’m so sorry, this is a bit longer than i anticipated. for the people that struggle with periods on this app, i’ve had irregular ones all my life. the one i’m having now has been going on for almost two and a half weeks, i’m in so much pain, and i’ve bled through pants multiple times a day since i’ve been on it. i went to the gyno earlier this year for my first pap smear and tried talking to her about the problems i had previously faced. it felt like she ignored me and rushed through my appointment. i had to go ahead make another appointment with her because she could see me the soonest (since i was already established with her. every other office i called could only take me starting late june) due to the issues i stated previously. i’m extremely nervous to go because i’m scared she won’t listen to my issues like last time. i’ve also gone to the er a few times trying to figure out what’s wrong, but they all just do a blood test and an ultrasound and tell me to go home. i’m swimming in medical bills that i already can’t pay. on top of that, my ocd is getting to a point of being extremely debilitating. i tried seeing if the app would accept my insurance, but they don’t. even with a payment plan, i absolutely cannot afford to find therapy here. i’ve also tried looking at therapists near me, but it seems like none of them specialize in ocd. i live in a small town, so in a way that’s expected, but it doesn’t help my case. i’ve been feeling incredibly weak due to the blood loss and the lack of therapy. i just need some kind words to help me keep a positive attitude, because it’s been extremely hard to do so as of late.

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